Second Poem(i probably have 10000 more)

"Pastimes..."
1.Missing what i always had
2.Crying and never being glad
3.Tired of my crazy life
4.Putting up with all the strife
5.Thinking life isn't fair
6.Trying to find someone who gives a care
7.Keeping it all a secret, trying to hide
8.Failing attempts at suicide
9.Trying to forget my hurtful past
10.Waiting to find my place at last