i need advice, READ THE INTRO IT'S IMPORTANT!!! and plz comment

ok, i just need to no if this is sad, pitiful, or people ACTUALLY CARE!!!
here is the time line
4th grade: i moved to NY and got friends. there was a guy in the class named Logan, and i was the only one who thought he was funny...i had a very secret crush on him. so secret, i didn't even know about it.
5th grade: i discovered this crush, and it grew. and grew. and grew. i told my best friend, and she had a crush on him 2. then she had me ask him out for her.
6th grade: i feel stuck now, idk