"Fixed"

I fell terror in my heart
It scares to even think about it.
The demon that tried to fix it is now done.
Now he resides in my heart waiting for someone to disturb him.
Your what makes me want to change.
But I cant see you.
I cant hear you
Do you even exist anymore?
Am I really this far into pain?
Can I heal myself? Can someone help me?
Did you even had the chance to explain your self?
The chance to apologize?