The Ever gaping hole in me

I feel the surge of nothing
I feel pressure where my heart used to be.
That feeling when its right, but it also feels hollow.
I can give my heart and my soul but then I lose control
Taking these small steps is all I can do.
Its cold inside of me, I shiver like never before
The shadows have fallen on yesterday.
I forget what it was and what it said.
Do I have purpose once again?
I am so numb, but I feel it everywhere