I will stand until you say I'm not good enough (weird poem I made for seconds ago)

I stand here and wonder where the time went why we had to lose ourselves and all the time the we spent.
I question every word you've said did that kiss even mean a thing. Or was I just another girl to fall and get in your way.
I strive and kill myself over and over again until you to me that I'm not good enough even then I will always be your friend.
I will cry and I will and i will always want ur love but I understand my dear if maybe I'm just not good enough.