swallow my pain part 2

Trying to find the mysteries inside
i cant find it in the way is my pride
not able to stay not able to say
not able to get through the mother *****ing day
waving goodbye to all in sight putting an end to there miserable lives
get one small kill off of every kill
i been doing this **** against my will
Im pouring my soul right out to you
so now tell me what you think i should do
messed up in my head why am i so screwed
wish i was dead right next to you