Silence in his Head and Heart (40)

It seems to me that the harder I try the harder I fall.

• Refuse to feel anything at all, refuse to slip, refuse to fall, can't be weak, can't stand still, watch your back because no one else will.
• The pain is there to remind me that I'm still alive.
• You can't just hug me and say it's okay because right... it doesn't feel that way...
• Sometimes the littlest thing in life changes something forever and there will be times when you wish you can go back to how things used to be but you just can't because things have changed so much.
• Sometimes I think that if I wasn't so good at pretending to be, I'd be better at actually being happy.