Diary Of Lizzy

My friends call me "Liz"& my family calls me "LizzyGirl". I truly hate the both of these nicknames. Everyone i know has cool ones....like "Mecca" or "JJ"; but me? I end up with the most crappiest ones ever. This poor pattern has been happening to me since i was three. Matter of factly if you think "Liz" or "LizzyGirl" is suckish, when i was five everyone called me "Captin-L". Then in an evolution "Captin-L" turned into "LiLi" when i turned nine; Then when I hit ten, i was given "Liz" from my friends& "LizzyGirl" from my family. I'm 13 now& still doesn't know how long these horrible "nicknames" will stay with me. Probably forever. I may turn old & everyone could still be like "Hey Liz" or "Oh LizzyGirl". But now that i think of it, i've never actually spoken up& said that these names bothered me. Maybe because deep down inside i like these names..which is a lie that i refuse to believe. For sure i would think that my biggest fear would be to actually say; "you know i hate these names". & then for everyone else to be like; "Ok. Well it's a good thing we can call you something better". Which "better" to everyone i possibly know is "worst". That is my biggest fear. Not spiders,nor the boogeyman,or death...just....that.