Walking The Earth Alone

As i was starting to walk back to my house something had caught my eye, i quickly turned around to see a dog sitting there looking at me with its big brown eyes. I told myself to ignore my imagination and just focus on getting home, it was dark,cold and the only light i had to help guide me though the night was the moon but even that wasn't enough to make me feel safe. I thought of seeing mumma sitting on her rocking chair knitting away like there was no tomorrow, and pupa in his study room reading to himself with a dim light.

Oh how i wish that i hadn't been this silly and ran away from my troubles and just face them face-face, but i had the right to chose when i am ready to marry and who i would like to marry. I started to feel light headed and sick the closer i got to my house and the more i started to feel trapped again, but i knew i had to get this over with and a small part of me wanted to see them again. As i reached the door i froze, my heart started to pound against my chest and i could hardly breathe. I closed my eyes and counted back from ten and as i counted down to one i felt much better.

I raised my hand up to the door and knocked softly against the hard wooden door. "Hello, who's there?" my mother asked as she started to open the door and as she did i could tell that she would not be able to remember me. "Hello mumma, i've come back for a little while" i said calmly trying hard to hold back my tears. "I'm sorry my dear i'm afraid i don't know you, you must have the wrong house" she replied in her sweet gentle voice. At that moment i thought about apologising and walking away but i knew i had to let them know that i was ok, that i was still living and breathing.

"Mumma don't you remember me? it;s me Claudia your daughter." i looked in her eyes and i could tell she remembered me, i knew she would forget me a little because of the fight we had before i ran away. "Claudia? is that really you my precious?" she asked gracefully and started to smile as she started to realised that i was still standing outside in the cold. "Yes mumma it is me and i have missed you and pupa, please forgive me for running away i never meant to hurt either of use." Claudia said sadly in a soft sweet tone.

Mumma came straight for me and gave me the biggest hug in her whole life. "Of course i forgive you sweetheart i could never stay mad at you." As she held me in her arms i felt like i was home again but i knew that i couldn't stay or then i would just re-break her heart again, and it would also hurt mine so at that moment i slowly but sadly pulled away from her and gave her a smile for the last time. "Fair well mumma, i'm sorry but i only came to say goodbye this was not me coming back to you, it was me saying goodbye."

All i remember after that was my mother looking at me with tears in her eyes and then i knew that i had injured her heart and from that moment i turned as ran tears streaming down my cheeks. "I'm sorry mumma, i'm so so sorry pupa" i shouted behind me, my head started to feel even lighter and my body started to feel heavy, i needed to lay down so i took a shot cut into the forest and headed straight for an abandoned cabin or so i thought it was abandoned....

To be continued...