Rolling in the deep

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark,


That's when I saw him, I walked in on my best friend kissing a girl that I room with. This was unexpected. I didn't realize until now that I loved him. Me Hermione Granger confessing to herself that she actually loved Ron Weasley. I never thought that would happen, and apperantly neither did he, given that he's snogging Lavender Brown right in frount of my eyes.


Finally, I can see you crystal clear,
Go ahead and sell me out and a I'll lay your ship bare,
See how I'll leave with every piece of you,
Don't underestimate the things that I will do,


I see Ron at the christmas party, I've been really sour to him since, Lavender. She's been asking questions about him, stuff like, his favorite sports team, and stuff like that. I just reply "Your his girlfriend, why don't you just ask him?"
then go to the library and cry. Neville knows, I spilled my heart out to him after a simple 'What's wrong' in the library. Harry knows, he followed me out after I saw their first kiss. Ginny knows, she's trying to talk Ron out of Lavender. It's not working. That's why I'm here with Cormac, Kissing under the Mistletoe, right in Ron's view, he sees but, I don't think he really cares.


There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark,
The scars of your love remind me of us,
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
I can't help feeling,


I almost kissed him once, almost. I was about to lean in when Harry called him. Dang you Harry! But he's all I got now, so I should stop saying that. Whenever I see him, I always think of that day, That could've been me, yeah could have. But it's not, it's Lavender, forget her. Ginny's still working on him, nothing's happening though. Nothings changed. Now she's calling him 'won-won' and then I tell Harry that I'm going to 'vom-vom' which translates into, ' I'm going cry next to the toilet untill someone finds me or I throw up. '


We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hand,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),


I've gotten through the depression stage, and now i'm in the anger stage. I told Fred and George, they agree with me that Ron's a git. They told me that they always thought I belonged wth Ron. Me and no one else. I'm not sure if that makes me feel better or worse. They said that I can have as many Weasley Wizard Weezes products I want as long as I use them on Ron. They said they're going to come and help me pull a big one, and they'll take the blame. I think that i'm in love with them now, both of them.


Baby, I have no story to be told,
But I've heard one on you and I'm gonna make your head burn,
Think of me in the depths of your despair,
Make a home down there as mine sure won't be shared,


I heard from a friend of a friend that Ron and Lavender went farther then just snogging a few days ago. I don't know if it's true but I'm going to assume that it is. I don't dare ask him. I told Harry what I heard, Ron never told him anything, but he doesn't doubt it and neither do I. Ginny cries for me and so do I, not every day anymore though, just a few times a week. When I see them together, I can walk on by. I could've never done that a month ago.


The scars of your love remind me of us,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
I can't help feeling,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),



Over christmas Harry wrote me that Lavender sent him a really embrassing necklace. I laughed my butt off! Fred and George wrote the same think, I spent a day at their store over break, I saw Harry and Ginny too. They were nice anough not to invite Ron, I love them all so much. The twins have become my new best friends, they tell me every embarassing thing Ron did both before and after I met him. I plan to post them under anonymusly.



We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),



I watched a movie the other day, called John Tucker must die! I got a few ideas...



Could have had it all,
Rolling in the deep,
You had my heart inside of your hands,
But you played it with a beating,
Throw your soul through every open door,
Count your blessings to find what you look for,
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold,
You'll pay me back in kind and reap just what you've sown,



I went back to Hogwarts, and of corse Ron was walking beside Harry, I ran and gave Harry a big hug, and started talking about the letter I wrote him. Then asked if he had a good Christmas, then told him about mine. He didn't understand what I was doing but finally caught on. Ron didn't say anthing to me, in fact when he looked at me, I saw a bit of saddness in his eyes, score!



(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
We could have had it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
It all, it all, it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),




Ron and Lavender were sitting on the step, and Ron looked quite annoyed, and uncomfertable. Double score!



We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),




Harry told me that Ron is getting annoyed with Lavender and her hyperness. That made me smile inside. I heard Ron tell Lavender "Sometimes I wish you were more like Hermione" That made me jump for joy on the spot, but of corse, mentally. I now spend less time in the library, and more time at Hogsmead with Ginny. She tells me when no ones looking, he cries, and quietly says my name. Finally, the orders are reversed.



Could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,


Harry told me that Ron had gotten poisoned, I was upset, I still am. Thinking that he could have died. Then if he died he would have died thinking that I hated him, but I didn't. It was the exact opposite, I was a jealous, love-sick muggle-born. I was by his bedside when he said my name, but the thing was, so was Lavender. As I sat on the side of his bed Lavender ran out of there faster then a nargle from Luna.



But you played it,
You played it,
You played it,
You played it to the beat.



"You don't remember anything?" I felt as if I was about to cry, "Anyhing, at all?" Harry gave me a look, the one of, 'I'm sorry for your loss' "Well there is one thing." Ron looked up as my face lit up. "It can't be," He chuckled "I was completely boggled." Now the roles were truly reversed, he was doubting his love for me. "Yeah," I raised the daily profit, to hide the tear, "boggled"