The Animal Within *Out of Control_ book 1

Christan's pov.

This wasn't suppose to happen, I wasn't suppose to hurt her, how could I do that... The only thought in my head was, 'oh god oh god! Wtf did I do??!!' I look at her unconscious and bleeding openly on the ground. She fell off the couch when I lost control and changed into a werewolf.. I had almost killed her when I attacked her..

I wanted to help her but the blood was raising every hair on my body, The smell was so bitter it made me skin turn cold. A shiver that worked throw me from the pit of my stomach. I could feel the wolf inside me start to growl and scratch and claw hungrily at my inside wanting out and i drew back from her. It was longing to kill and trying to help her might set it off again, and that would defiantly kill her.

I wouldn't be able to control it again. I knew it was a bad idea to just leave her there bleeding but I couldn't stay, The wolf in me was so powerful and I wasn't strong enough to stop it. My insides started to burn and ache with a want and a need to kill her, to taste her blood on my lips. So I with drew and made my self leave, I took one more last long look before evacuating the scene.

She looked so fragile laying there and so broken. I felt bad for loosing it like I did. But she pushed the boundaries I tried to create and I had warn her not to break, had she been asking for what was coming.. no.. no one asks for harm. And of all ppl she didn't deserve this, it was a mistake.

Her getting hurt wasn't her fault, it was mine. I shouldn't have been so selfish and tried to have a relationship with a human, I knew how it would end, how it always ends... I can only kill and harm those around me and close to me.. so maybe I am the one that deserves harm instead of them..

Maybe it is time for me to end it, once and for all. I grab my coat and leave knowing exactly to where I am headed..... to close a deal offered to me a long time ago.