Remember Me?

My name is Payton Marie Andrews. I'm 16 years old and I live in Stratford, Ontario. My friends are Ryan Butler, Chaz Somers and Christian Beadles. I used to be BEST friends with Justin Bieber but ever since the accident, we haven't talked. I live with my Mom. My dad died, he was killed in a car accident. He died on October 8th, 2007. I was standing on the balcony as usual, thinking, just thinking. thinking about if it hadn't been for me, that stupid accident would have never happened. I would have still had a best friend and my daddy. It was all my fault Daddy is dead. It was quiet, it was 11:00pm. The sky was clear, the moon shone bright. Then my pocket vibrated, I jumped and had a mini heart attack. I forgot I had my phone with me. Me: "Hello?" Ryan: "Payton..." Me: "What Ryan? it's like 11 at night." Ryan: "I couldn't sleep." Me: "What do you want me to do about it?" Ryan: "How do you get to sleep?" Me: "Listen to music." Ryan: "I tried!" Me: "Well then too bad.I was doing something!" Ryan: "Okay then! Bye Cranky!" I hang up and slowly walk to my bed and fall asleep. I woke up with tears in my eyes and sweat on my forehead. I understood why. I had that dream, it was more of a memory. It's a bad memory. It was the accident from 4 years ago. I walked over to the balcony and saw the cold dark blue sky. I felt cold. I felt dead. Chills were sent through my body as i stand there on the balcony. Sweating, crying and the memory rushed and replayed in my head. We were in the car, Justin, his baby brother Jaxon, Dad and I were. We just picked up Jaxon from his daycamp and it was night time. I was asleep, Justin and Jaxon were too. the only one awake was dad and he was driving. Daddy shook me and told me we were almost home and to wake up Justin and Jaxon, but i didn't listen to him and I went back to sleep. Daddy shook me again, this time letting go of the steering wheel. He lost control and hit a speeding truck, driven by a drunk driver. Everything went black and all i could hear was the sounds of police sirens and firetruck horns and then the ambulance. The next thing we were in the hospital. Me and Justin were in the waiting room. Daddy and Jaxon were hurt worse than we were. They were in the hospital rooms. Justin and I walked hand in hand to the first room where daddy was. There was blood everywhere. There was blood on Daddy, there was blood on the doctors. Daddy kept jerking all weird. The doctors tried to hold him down, it didn't work. Daddy kept flailing his arms all over. His breathing was fast. The heart monitor sped up real fast and then slowed down fast and then…stopped. Daddy was dead. My dad was dead. I let out a loud "No!" and Justin and he gave me a hug and told me Daddy left for a reason. I wanted to die, I wanted to find a knife and kill myself I wanted Justin to kill me. There is no point, life without daddy is no worth life at all. No one loves me, my mom never liked me. She wanted to have a boy. "No one loves me, kill me now." I told Justin as I handed him a knife I found. Then Justin told me something I will NEVER forget. He said: "Payton, I love you and I'll never stop" Justin and I leaned in, I closed my eyes and I had my first kiss with Justin. My first kiss ever. We were all covered in bruises, scratches and we were bleeding but it didn't matter. There were tear running down my face and my face was red from crying but I tried to hide it, I didn't want Justin to see me crying but I couldn't help it. another tear formed in my eye and it rolled down my cheek and I turned away from Justin's view before he could see my tears but Justin faced me towards him and held my face in his hands he wiped my tears away with his thumb and told me everything would be okay and everything would turn out right. He told me it was okay to cry in front of him. Then his eyes got real big. he told me to stay in the waiting room, he'd be right there. I saw Justin run down the hallway and into a room. 15 minutes later I saw Justin storming down the hall with tears on his cheeks and his face red. I stood up hoping to give him a hug, but Justin came at me and pushed me. I asked Justin what I did. Justin said that it was my fault, I didn't wake him and Jaxon up so now he's dead. I told him I did nothing but. justin said "YOU DIDN'T WAKE ME UP AND WE GOT IN THAT CRASH!" Justin hit me and pushed me and yelled more at me. Now I was crying and bleeding again.Justin yelled at me he said "IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT THAT JAXON AND YOUR DAD ARE DEAD!!!" He told me that I'm stupid, dumb and ugly and that he would never forgive me. "I HATE YOU!" were the last words Justin told me. Tears were streaming down my face. Today was October 8th. The day that Dad and Jaxon died. The day I lost my best friend. I stood on my balcony, looking up at the grey sky, gray clouds, gray air. I walk to the cemetery near our house where Daddy is buried. I walk around and find Daddy's grave. It says JACK NICOLAS ANDREWS 1964-2007. A tear rolls down my cheek as I look over to the right where I see Jaxon's grave. It says JAXON JULIAN BIEBER 2005-2007. I drop to my knees and I cry, Justin was right, it was all my fault, if i hadn't been so stubborn, Jaxon and Daddy would still be here. I cried and cried. I felt a cold hand on my shoulder, I looked back and I saw daddy? I stood up and I saw daddy in ghost form. He was smiling. Me: "Daddy?" Dad: "It's me Baby Girl" Me: "Daddy..." I smiled and let a tear drop to the ground. Me: "How are you here? Your not- alive..." Dad: "I can come and go but I can't stay long." Me: "I missed you daddy, and It was all my fault you and Jaxon are dead. Justin was right." Dad: "No Payton, it wasn't," Me: "But Justin said-" Dad: "He just lost his brother, he was mad and needed to blow off steam." Me: "I miss him." Dad: "He misses you too." Me: "No he doesn't he said he hated me and he would never forgive me. He told me I was ugly and stupid, and he was right." Dad: "Never say that Payton, you're beautiful and don't let anyone tell you otherwise because ugly is the exact opposite of what you are." Me: "Thank you dad." Dad: "I have to leave Payton, I don't have much time left on Earth." Me: "How often can you come back?" Dad: "5 minutes every month" Me: "I love you, and miss you." Dad: "I love you too Baby Girl." I felt cold arms wrapped around me and I hugged Daddy back and he disappeared in my arms. I see something marked in the dirt. it says "I Love you Baby Girl, See you soon" I smile and walk home. ~~ Sorry, this was short... I'll try to make the chapters longer. Or was this too long? Idk... XD~~