Love Me, Love Me Not

What am I Thinking? The most Popular guy in the 7th grade whose 5'6 would fall for the shyest 4'10 girl. Am I an idiot if I think we have something real? He's dated a bunch of other Blonde smart girls... Okay, one other girl, but they dated way more than once! He's just got the bluest eyes I've ever seen. I can't help but stare at him. I always freak out when I catch him starring at me. My best friend already told him she likes him and now she's totally over him! I don't want that to happen to me! Especially if there's gonna be rejection! There's no other guy like him. Well there is One other guy like him. Peter! But I consider him just a friend cuz I've known him forever and I'm kinda sick of the on and off crush on him.I mean, Matt is funny and smart. There's absolutely nothing wrong with him! This feeling! The best feeling in the world, and I don't want to lose it. No matter what nothing could change the way I feel about him! His ex-girlfriend (Mikayla) bugs the crud out of me! Ever since she found out I like Matt (she found out when they were dating) it's like she's trying to make my life miserable! Talking about me behind my back to Margaret (Best friend who had also liked Matt) thinking Margaret wouldn't tell me! She always tries to exclude me! And worst of all she does everything I do. But better. She makes me look like a loser! I can see why he broke up with her! She is such a B word! I just want to punch her in the face and Yell "That's What You Get!!" Back to Matt his smile just lights up the room! I know all this about him sounds cheesy but that's all you get when your in love! Matt's completely opposite of me. He's out there and I'm so shy all I can do is Laugh when he pulls a joke! The only common things we have are that we love music, we have blue eyes, we're funny( i just only express it at home), and we love basketball (Go Lakers!). OK so maybe I'm head over heels for him but Who can help themselves. I bet at least once most of the girls in the 7th had a crush on him. I love the fact that I have every class with him! The only classes we don't have together are Gym and Art. We're being forced to take gym and art. Gym i don't mind. It's art that needs to die! bzzzzzzzz "Hey, Margaret! What's Up?" Not much.. But can you believe how cute Peter is! He's got those brown eyes you can't resist!" "Margaret, I've resisted them since Kindergarten, but yes if you look into them long enough you get swallowed by a bunch of.... not to insult you or anything. bunch of Crud!" "Thats your opinion! Peter is the funniest and Smartest guy I know!" "Firstly he's not half as funny as Matt and secondly he's only in one smarter class than us and that's only cuz he went to a different school until this year. Margaret I understand your position and all but don't you think there's nicer guys out there that actually like you? I mean take Wulf, Peter's Best Friend. He may not like you now but it's possible he will one day." "True but till that day I'll stick with Peter." "Fine by me. Anyway... To more important news... Did I tell you yet? In History class we got to color pictures and the whole time Matt was singing Big Time Rush's Boyfriend!!! I was the only girl around him so it kinda freaked me out! I loved it though!" "Catherine!! You're just like me. We're both love sick for these guys! get a hold of yourself and breathe!" "OK.. Guess I needed that. It's just sooooo different with him! He uses music for practically everything he feels. Just Like Me!!!" " the thing is he also used music to break up with Mikayla. Remember?" "I remember of course! That was the happiest day of my life!" " Catherine!!!!" "I know Mikayla is your friend but she's NOT mine!!!" "Why do you hate her?" "The question is Why does she HATE ME!!!!" "She doesn't hate you!" "You don't see how she looks at me. How she acts around me. How she gets in between us! Ever since you two started hanging out you rarely ever talk to me!!!" " That's so not true!" " Really? Then how come you only ever say good morning to me at school then go on a rampage looking for Mikayla!! I know she's separating us and so do you!" " I gotta go Catherine. TTYL." I can't believe her! She just won't listen! We've been Best Friends since 5th grade. I hoped she would be my friend that would last longer than any of the other friends I've had and she's lasted longer than most of them. There's always some stupid girl who feels the need to take away the only person who brings me happiness! Great! Now I have to do my Math homework frustratedly!!! Ms.S better take my even worse hand writing!