In my life

All of mt life iv bin doin stuff ddnt really kare wat i did ddnt kare bout skl seems th only i kared bout wuz my frnds i jst tht bout em and l kuldnt wait fur th nxt day to c em now idk if i shuld evn kare bout em thr jst guna stab u in th bak i mean its happend to me alot of times i knt trst somone as easily as i used to idc anymor ya i du kare bout som frnds but som of th othr i thnk i shuld jst stop talkin to im surprised iv livd ths frkn long without kutting my self goin cray z idk ya weird but idc wat u thnk all i kare is wat my frnds thnk of me if u thnk im weird fur jst writtin ths u rong if u really new me ud thnk of me diffrent all of my akomplishments hav bin taken away thr jst som silly thng i did in th past really dnt kare bout em my down falls really bug me my biggest down fall is trstn somone wit all of my secrets they betrayed me idk y im not dead yet y shuldnt i b? i mean ya all of thngs left me wounded ya iv had bad luk all of my life but idc i keep on livin cuz i wanna c wer ths life we all kall takes me u kno? ya iz kinda weird talkin bout all of ths stuff all of th other stories shuld jst b erased but y shuld i worry its not ur buissnes its jst mine nobody elses not evn th 1 i kare bout most or th one i kare bout least it feels weird thnkn bout killin my self nvr really thot of tht u kno not in all of my life but now i am i hate and lik ths world 50 50 i hate it cuz its gunna killl us if war is killn our luvd ones 1 by 1 its sur to kill us i lik it cuz i take as a chance to x periance luv hate pain wat it really means to b aliv all i kno iz tht wen im dead imma b happier thn evr tho i wish tht wuldnt happen anytime soon im havin problems yes i admit tht and alot of em dnt really kare rite now but i will wen im ready to begin a new life and wat i mean by tht is........................................................................................................