Never Let Me Go

"Mom, I don't want to go."I said I was whining like a 5 year old."I'm not gonna force you to go, I'm just saying it would be good for you considering you just graduated college and you haven't seen the guys since you graduated high school in '06."She replied. I had my camera in hand and i was debating"Yeah and I bet they don't even remember me." I said. "Oh, sure they do Isobel told me so when she told me that you should join them."My mom assured me "I'll think about it i still got a week right."I said "Just don't take to long to decide sweetie"My mom said

I went to my room. Why should i go on tour with them they're the ones who didn't talk to me after graduation. Didn't even bother to send a text message or e-mail. They probably don't remember me Isobel was just trying to be nice to my mom they've been friends forever. Not like my friendship with Alex has lasted that long we were best friends since we were in diapers up in till after graduation.

Think of the positives I told myself:
I'll get to see them after four years.
We can rekindle are friendship.
I get to go around the United States and some of Canada.
This would be a great opportunity for me to start my portfolio by taking pictures of everything amazing i see.
I won't be stuck at home trying to find a summer job.
I'll get to see some other bands too.

Now lets think of the negatives:
Let's start with there famous.
They probably don't remember me.
I'll be stuck on a bus with them.
The awkward moments when they bring girls on the bus.
They probably drink and the last time I took a drink was when I was 18.

As I juggled all these positives and negatives in my mind, I thought of the biggest negative of all.

Those feelings I had for Alex would they come back. Nah, they won't i wouldn't let them come back. Plus Alex never had those feeling for me as far as I knew. Those feelings were strong to me though. I'm not gonna let those feelings come. Plus the Alex I knew more likely has changed with his fame.

I thought and thought over and over again for 30min. Why was this so hard it should be simple a yes or no answer. Instead it was a more if i go what would happen.

I went to my closet and dug around. Searching for the blue box of my high school memories. I found it at the bottom of my closet. Opening it on top was my graduation cap. under my old digital camera I used to use all the time. Then there were all my pictures. Me, me and Alex, me and all the guys, and then there was one of me, Alex and Daniel. Daniel I thought, no don't want to go to that memory. It was to painful to remember.

A knock on the door startled me."California open the door." Sage said. Sage was my little brother he was 8 years old and a big pain in my a**. "Why would I do that?" I asked him. "So, I can play on your laptop"He replied. I took my laptop of my bed and put it on the top shelf of my closet. I opened the door and Sage ran to my bed. His blond curls bouncing when he jumped on my bed. "Where is it?" He asked. I shrugged my shoulders "I don't know" I said. He ran out yelling "MOM,MOM, California's being mean to me."

I walked out my room Sage ran past me. I went to the living room. "Why did Sage say you where being mean to him" My mom asked. "Because I didn't allow him to use my laptop."I said. "Well of course you didn't asst time he used it he broke it."She said I went to the kitchen and got me a soda. Heading back to my room once I got to my room I realized that Sage was in my closet digging for something. "WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN TTHERE!" I yelled. Sage was searching through my orange box of family memories. I grabbed him by the arm yanking him up to his feet and pushing him out the door. Slamming the door close.

I put my soda down on my dresser and started picking up my pictures from my orange box when I stopped on one specfic picture. It was a picture of me, my dad, and my older brother Nevada or like I called him snow and he called me land.

Mom,"Why, is my name Nevada?" Nevada asked. "Well when me and you're dad were picking names for you we wanted to name you something Spanish and since me and your dad like the snow we named you Nevada which is the Spanish word for snow." My mom said"Why, is my name California?" I asked."Well you see i got to pick your name and i always wanted to go to California. Since California means mythical land in Spanish it sounded perfect for a little girl." My dad said

I always remembered that day, it was the day before my brother and dad got in the car accident. They both died in the accident I was only ten when they died. Me and my mom both moved on when I was 14 she adopted Sage from one of her friends that decided she couldn't raise a child because of her abusive husband.


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I couldn't believe I was actually doing this. I was in front of the door. I had my hand ready to knock but I didn't knock. I just stood there frozen. It isn't to late to turn around and go home. I told myself. No something said in my mind I'm going to at least go for a week. I knocked on the door. No, turning back now.

Isobel answered the door. "Callie it's been so long since I've seen you" Isobel said"Come in, the guys will be hear in a few they've gone to get some last things" she said. I entered the apartment. she ushered me to the living room where her husband Peter was sitting on the couch. "Hey, Callie how has it been going. Long time no see" He "It's been going good finished college" I said "Yes, Isobel told me you did what did you major in ?"He asked "I majored in photography" I replied. We had a small chat.

Then I heard the door open. "Guess who's back" I heard his voice say........................TBC


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