I Say I don't Need Saving.
Sally Barns is a raging 15 year old girl. She doesn't know what to believe in this world of ours. Sally lost her dad a while ago but she didn't grieve.
Because she doesn't know how to.
This is Sally Barns story as she questions the world and the people around her.
I question the world. I question me. I question who I am and what the hell I am supposed to do in this messed up world. I question why my dad died and why he wasn't saved.
What the hell went wrong?
I didn't grieve him. When I was 13, we were talking after a friend of his had died.
They celebrated his life.
My daddy always wanted that. He didn't want me or mom to mourn. So i never taught myself to mourn.
I blocked my heart. I made walls. I haven't shed a tear in years.
My friends try to 'save' me but they can't. I don't need saving. I need answers.
Mom cries herself to sleep and I know she needs answers too.
At night, I lay silently, listening to her.
"Why? Why did you leave me? I love you...I love you! How do you expect me to go on? How do you expect your daughter, OUR daughter to live without her father?" She screams. If I allowed myself to mourn, I know I would be ten times worse than her.
But I don't. Everything just slides off me. I have literally shut off my emotions.
My mom and friends would think I'm depressed but my grades are excelling and i thrive at everything I set my mind to.
Except one thing.
And that is to understand this crazy, messed up world in which we live on.
You can try to save me...But it won't work.
What the hell went wrong?
I didn't grieve him. When I was 13, we were talking after a friend of his had died.
They celebrated his life.
My daddy always wanted that. He didn't want me or mom to mourn. So i never taught myself to mourn.
I blocked my heart. I made walls. I haven't shed a tear in years.
My friends try to 'save' me but they can't. I don't need saving. I need answers.
Mom cries herself to sleep and I know she needs answers too.
At night, I lay silently, listening to her.
"Why? Why did you leave me? I love you...I love you! How do you expect me to go on? How do you expect your daughter, OUR daughter to live without her father?" She screams. If I allowed myself to mourn, I know I would be ten times worse than her.
But I don't. Everything just slides off me. I have literally shut off my emotions.
My mom and friends would think I'm depressed but my grades are excelling and i thrive at everything I set my mind to.
Except one thing.
And that is to understand this crazy, messed up world in which we live on.
You can try to save me...But it won't work.
12 Comments
love it!!!!!
This is awesome!!!
GIVE ME MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh, my God, that was beautiful....You make it seem like this actually happened to your or something....I really do love it :)
The reason why I can write it so well is because I do question a lot of those things I said but I haven't lost my dad. I did lose a friend to a drunk driver. This girl does resemble me in more ways than one...and not just cause I named her after me.
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awesome 5 stars
Woah your such an amazing writer!
Interesting...
wow talk about intense! love this.
I remember this story!! I remember finding it here on Quibblo one day and thinking that it was absolutely amazing. This is so heartfelt, so emotional, that I couldn't help but be the character in the story. That's so sad, yet brilliantly written. 5 stars hands-down :)
It sounds really amazing so far!