i Love You-(A Christian Beadles Love Story) part 23

2 days later Monday, November 22, 2010
Camilles pov
Today was christians birthday! Sadly it was a Monday, a school day and the day I was leaving. The past two days have been great. Christian and I have spent so much time with each other. Im glad we are dating now. but I cant I have to leave now. I know nothing can come between us. I felt something in my stomach, like it was saying that something was going to happen! I pushed the feeling aside. Last night me and Christian were outside and talking. I remember, he touched my hand and held it. He looked and me and said
“Camille, I have never felt this way about anyone. In a good way. I felt like I have known you forever. And well I fell for you. Hard. Harder than you could ever imagine. In fact these feeling have grown stronger every time I see you and well it could be one thing. Camille, I love you.”
He said, his big hazel eyes staring into mine. I smiled and said
“well, Christian Jacob Beadles, I have felt that very same way about you too. I love you. I know we are fourteen. Well, your thirteen but I know we can make this last. I love you and know I know you do to. Im really going to miss you.”
We smiled at each other and then leaned in. when our lips touched it felt different. A good different different. His lips were warm and soft. He was gentle with me and I loved it.

I smiled and got up and walked across the hall to christians room. I peeked in and he was sprawled across the bed. It was quiet funny actually. I giggled and walked to the kitchen. Caitlin was helping Mrs. Beadles with christians breakfast and Mr. Beadles was sitting at the table reading the newspaper.
“Goodmorning, camille.” mrs. B said smiling at me.
“hello everyone.”
They all smiled and I walked to where Caitlin was. I saw a big stack of pancakes. At top in whip cream it read “HAPPY B-DAY Chris” on it. I smiled and put on a strawberry.
I heard the scrap of the chair and turned around. Mr. Beadles got out of the chair.
“Well, I got to go to work. be back at dinner. Camille, nice seeing you, hope to see you soon.” He told me and smilled.
I smiled “I hope ill see you very soon too.”
He left and Christian came in.
“goodmorning, birthday boy!” I heard his momma say.
“thanks.”
“how does it feel to be 14?” ia sked peeking him on his cheek.
“old but great. Oh and you guys cant call me cute anymore. Im hot and sexy now.”
“oh. I see your attitude has already changed.” His mom said giving him a look.
That made me crack up.
“well, here is your pancakes. Christian we are leaving soon so hurry up.”
“okay mom”
30 minutes later
Christians pov
I was changed and ready to go. I put the packet on my desk. I cant let Camille see this. I thought to myself. I walked across the hallway and knocked on camilles door. She opened it and I hugged her. she was a little taken back but then relaxed and hugged me. we let go and I said with my scratchy voice “I’m going to miss you so much.”
She had tears in her eyes and said “ I’m going to miss you more.”
“CHRISTIAN! Im leaving. Get in car!!” I heard my mom yell.
I sighed and looked at Camille and said I'm not good at saying GoodBye! Let's just leave on saying, "see you soon".

She laughed. “you got that from you mom.”
I laughed “yep, I did.”
We kissed one last time and I walked to car. I got in and my mom looked at me.
“I know your going to miss her, Christian but we will see her soon.”
I didn’t respond, instead I turned my head so I was looking outside I didn’t want to let my mom see me cry.
Camilles pov
After Christian left I grabed the letter I wrote him. it was from the heart. All the ggod times we had. How I felt about him. everything!
I walked into his room and walked to his desk and stopped dead in my tracks. I saw a note that read ‘don’t let Camille see this!’ I dropped the letter and grabbed the packet. I opened it and there was this girl and Christian. Christian had his arms wrapped around her. the girl was pale, dark black hair and brown eyes. Under the pictures, it looked like they were post form Christian with the date. I read them.

4-7-10
I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ALYSSA

4-7-10
i wanna date alyssa but im not good enough

4-7-10
Alyssa....i'm sorry...i shouldve never hurt you....it was my biggest mistake

4-7-10
i had the BEST conversation with Alyssa on the phone about an hour ago :) I love her :)

4-15-10
Alyssa...im sorry :(
I've never loved anyone more then i loved you.....i may say i have...but i honestly never have.
i know i say i love you....then break your heart the next day...but i regret it EVERY time.
When i told you that you should go die in a car crash...i didnt mean it.
But what hurt me most was the way you were crying....at that point i knew i really hurt you.
I Love you more then like i love you more then anything and i love you more then anyone.
Your the only girl for me...your perfect, cute, funny, amazing, you have the perfect smile, a great personality, Amazing eyes and im NEVER gonna let you go
But
What suprises me most....is that you still stuck around and stayed by my side

4-17-10
I think i love Alyssa....I'm not really sure though.....I'm confused :/


5-10-10
Alyssa i love you and im sorry i ever hurt you


5-7-10

alyssa i am so sorry...i love you allot....i love being on the phone with you and i love hearing your laugh...even though i hate how when you laugh it makes me laugh....because i hate my laugh...but it doesnt matter as long as i hear ur laugh...the 3 days i havent talked to you felt like 3 years...i have never gone 3 days without talking to you...it was killing me....i didnt do anything but sit in my room with my phone just waiting for you to text me or call me....but i just wanted to say that i really love you...i love you more then anything

after reading these I had tears in my eyes. He loved this girl. He said he loved. Then I got really angry. I grabbed a piece of paper and wrote:

Christian-
let me get this straight....
i love you. you say you love me but you really love her?
wow i am reaaaaally that dumb not to see this happen.
-camille
P.S. we are over!
I threw the paper on his desk and let the tears fall. Caitlin came in. Camille, are you- whats wrong. I showed her the paper. After awhile we talked and I said. “I just want to go home. If that’s what I could call it. Irene still treats me like crap and im sick of it! ”
We walked to caitlins white hummer and drove to the airport. I dumped Christian on his birthday. WOW!! He deserved it though! Caitlin dropped me off at the airport. I knew my life was over.