Being your true SELF

I'm a tomboy, that is true,
But at the same time I am still a girl too.
Just because I don’t express my feelings,
Doesn't mean I don’t have any, because I do.
I may not be open with my emotions,
But I get happy, sad, and angry just like you,
Except I am better at hiding them than you.
You might never see me cry,
But that doesn't mean I don't shed the same tears everyone else does.
Just because I dress like a boy
Doesn't mean I act or think like one too.
A sports lover I am indeed,
But I love other things too.
The majority of my friends are male,
But I sometimes wish I had a girl friend too.
I was born a tomboy, that’s all I have ever known.
But sometimes people forget that I am a girl too.


I smile as a stranger walks by and catches my eye
if only he could see
if only everyone could see inside of my heart
see the weakness
and the loneliness
if only could find someone to understand
I go through life in a daze
not many people seeing the true me
not many people even trying to see me
I sit with friends and talk and smile
only to cove up the up the pain
as soon as the light goes out at night
I am terrified
what if I die
would anyone care
would I have made a difference in anyone's life
left my mark anywhere behind so I can be remembered
as I reach out for anything to grasp onto
to help me catch my breath
between my cries of despair
please oh please I pray
just relieve of this pain in my heart

They think that because I'm from
a ruff town or city
An they'm from summat different,
summat nicer, they can judge me

Cos I spend ma weekends with m8s
they hold it against ya
make you out to luk like some
G UNIT gangsta

Like I haven't already got
enuff points to prove
keepin outta trouble so my rents
wont think bout needin to move

to a nicer place with no more
shootinz and knives
they try so fxin hard to give
us kidz beta lives

but this is what we want, where we from
and how we'll stay
the streetz of wolvo
I wouldnt av it any other way

then people ask bout ma family
I got nuffin to hide
because we may be poor in money
but we're richer in pride

and family is all it comes down to
innit?
they're the ones who trecked here for us
from mayo and limerick

but back to the point
it's them kids who just diss me
because I'm from where I'm from they'm sayin
yamyam and paddy

but it's jus name callin
it dnt really offend me
because I know all I need to know
my family loved me

there aint no gang
or hooligan fighters
we're just a few kids having fun
bein jokers

so judge me on my appearance
if you really want to
dnt get to know me
assume what you will assume

the scarf round my face
and the people I'm wiv
tell me I should go home
and re-learn how to live
my life

or you can do the right thing
and you can just get to know
what it's like for teenage kids these days
having to grow

with the drugs and the guns
and the pessimists thinkin
kids just want to waste their lives in jail
for a shankin

Its who I am on the inside that's mad
I say I'm okay but I'm not sometimes
I just want to die but I know
It's not the answer to my problems
I just want to be alone
But yet I don't want to be
I love my friends
But I don't always want to be around them
They make me so feel so not alone in this world
Yet when I'm with other people I feel so alone
Its who I am on the inside that's so alone and mad