lifes a ****

I used to believe that love was childish, only but a foul's game: but slowly your existence in my life changed that feeling. Every time we spoke my heart suddenly throbbed and that felling sickening me the wall i so carefully crafted and put up to protect myself was being taken down by a mere human , a boy no less. Every smile you showed me made my heart skip a beat, but then reality took its toll. We hung out more i secretly became afraid that if we became more then friends i would lose you forever, it's my greatest fear. I acted as though we were friends ignoring the signals you gave me, please i thought let us just stay friends, for i could be by your side forever. I sacrificed my feelings buried then deep underneath my heart because i cherished our friendship and you more above all things you were most important but no you wanted more of me, all of me i simply cant give you all of me, afraid of being broken and destroyed. Why couldn't you just have a part of me, your selfish truly you are. Now we don't talk it's like im invisible to you ever thing is ruined and now i hate you. Slowly you move on while i stand still looking back at the past. I start to hate you even more and my hatred grows. Now we've parted forever why'd must you die why didn't god stop it. Damn this world and all that is left of you, us is our broken memories and a note you wrote to me.... you wrote. Alicia i love you..........i broke out in tears i hate you i hate but i love you. you foolish boy