Kiss N' Tell

I left a note on the teacher's desk telling him I had to talk to him 3 days later he approaches me and asks me what I needed, I told him I was having suicidal thoughts and actions, that I tried to hang myself but I did it wrong and I just passed out, the counselor shipped me off to the Mental Hospital where I met some amazing people, my roommate Sydney, "Hey Maggie!" My roommate called out to me "Check out the new girl! She just left yesterday and now she's back!!!" I looked and saw the most beautiful girl in the whole world, beautiful long curly black hair and dark brown eyes and mocha colored skin, black braces, boys clothes, one of the most stunning girls I've ever seen her name was Alex, she was yelling at the staff when they called her Alexandra, she had ordered everyone to call her Alex. She sat down relaxed and later that night she walked up to me and said "Hi! Do you know why I'm back?!" I replied with "Uh.. no." She laughed and leaned closer and whispered "I wanted to hang out with you, because I saw you before I got discharged yesterday and you were crying when you walked in the hospital, I came back to make sure your stay here was the most fun you've ever had. I looked down and smiled and she brushed some hair behind her ear, I forced my eyes to look up at her gorgeous face and she smiled at me. The whole time I was there I was trying not to run up to her and kiss her. "Alright Movie Time!!! Everybody pick your choice in movie and we'll start up the one with the most votes at 8:00!!" Natalie said. I picked Pirates Of The Caribbean because Johnny Depp is so cute! Alex picked the one with tons of blood and gore in it, I knew the whole time she'd never be mine, we'd never be the happy old couple sitting on the bench 80 years old, looking at each other then pressing our wrinkled lips against each others then looking out into the sunset but it's alright to make believe sometimes. They started up the movie and I went "I'm going to go into my room, bye." I got up and started walking and Alex and Sydney went "No, please no!" Sydney then came into the room 15 minutes later asking me "If Alex asked you out would you say yes?" I looked at her for a second and went "Heck yeah!" I was pretty mad at Sydney because she liked Alex too, and Sydney is a pretty likable person, she already had a boyfriend though but she was saying how she would break up with him for her. That Night Their is a knock at the door and I open it and flowers with a post-it note attached to it flies into my face. "Meet me in the Entertainment room at 8:30, I want to talk to you." me and Sydney were fighting over which side the flowers and note went on, hers or mine, we decided on putting on in between. I woke up at 8:45 and went "Oh crap, Alex!" I ran into the bathroom silently trying not to wake up Sydney, of course, she woke up, I threw on my make-up and straightened my hair, Alex was sitting on the chair lip syncing a song while me and Sydney walked out of the room, she looked up at me and I smiled and waved and she patted on the chair next to her and I walked to the chair next to her and sat down, Sydney followed and didn't leave Alex's side the whole time, I wanted to throw her out the window, if it wasn't for Sydney, I'd have Alex by now! I kept making Alex laugh, she laughed at everything I said, gosh, she's so f.u(k!n9 gorgeous I can't take it anymore.. I asked the Therapist there if I could be discharged and he went "Of course!" I had already filled out my paper work and all I had to do was schedule a meeting and make sure at least one of my parents were there, I set up my meeting for 3:45 that day, I couldn't take looking at Alex's face anymore and knowing I'll never have her. 3:00 Alex kept avoiding me and once she saw me and told me to come next to her, she called out "Never mind, it's quiet time." I walked her back to her room and while fighting back tears I managed to say "Can you call me tonight?" I had given her my number earlier and told her to call me "Sure!" She could tell by the look on my face and the sound in my voice that I was battling tears, when I got discharged I turned on my phone and has 72 unread messages to read, I got home at about 6:30 and got on Face book, chatted with my friends I had missed, I added Alex and Sydney, I put my phone on loud so I could read if my phone was ringing My first kiss went a little like this! I looked at my phone and it was an unknown number, I wasn't sure if it was Alex but I had a hunch, I answered and she said "Hey, do you know who this is?!" I could tell by her voice she was smiling "Of course, this is Alex!" she chuckled and said "Correct, well... When I get out of here do you want to hang out? Like.. You bring a girl friend, I bring a guy friend?" I knew where this was going "Oh.. So you and my friend can hook up and I'm left with your guy friend?" I felt a disappointed tear start to form in my eyes, "No... They hook up and then me and you..." The tear turned into a rejoicing tear and I smiled real big and went "That sounds like fun!" she laughed and said "Yeah... Well, my ten minutes are up, I've got to go, I'll call you tomorrow." I nodded, even though she couldn't see me, "Alright, bye!" After I hung up I looked at my phone and it was a 3 minute conversation, I knew right there that she didn't really like me, she just felt bad for me. I cried for a long time, after that phone call, knowing that she was just here to break my heart, I still loved her! The Next Day I watched the clock all day long and waited for her to call me, no call. I went on Face Book to see if she got out and accepted my friend request, nope! I sat around crying all day and my mom took me out shopping, I didn't want to go out for anyone to see me, I didn't want Alex to be out and see me.