Because of you ~ R/Hr

Ginny got her letter from Neville. Harry had died, she got that letter two years ago, Harry died on the job. He left her here on Earth, with three kids, James, Albus, and Lily. I lied in the bath, thinking about what Ginny was, and what she had become. Ron was a wreck, after all, he did see it happen.

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I Will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Ron hadn't come home tonight, and he was always home on time. He told me this morning they would hunt for Lestrange, he said he'd be home by nine, and call if he was late. It was midnight. When I closed my eyes, i couldn't stop myself from imagining Rose and Hugo without a father, and me without a husbond. My single tear fell in the bath water, and made those ringlets, the rippling effect.

Because of you
I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

Of ending up like Ginny. She was torn, she was crippled. If it wasn't for her kids, I'm sure she wouldv'e commited suicide. I wouldn't be like Gin, I'd be worse. I'd be in comatose for days, then act brave to try and push through, then be dead when I went to sleep at night. I wouldn't physically be dead, nor brain dead Heart dead.

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

I wrap myself in my robe and check on Rose. She is on her side, with her blue eyes closed and her red hair sprawled across her pillow. I patted her head, she would be the only trace of him in the house. Hugo looked so much like me, it's scary. I kiss her forehead, and smell her hair, my eight year old stirred, but did not wake. I walked out of the room, without a sound.

Because of you
I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I walked across the hall, where my son was standing in his room. It was one in the morning. "Hey?" I asked. Hugo turned around, "Hey mom. I just couldn't sleep." He walked up to me, and I hugged him. "Is dad here yet?" He asked. I sat on his bed, he perched himself on my leg. "Dad's not here yet." I poked his stomach. "But I reckon, he'll be here soon." Hugo rubbed where I poked him.

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

After I tucked Hugo back into bed, I called Ginny. I cried over the phone. One-thirdy. She kept reasurring me, but I could hear worry in her voice. And that's exactly what I told her. She told me after Harry, how could she not be worried?

Because of you
I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

From our room, I hear the door, and an unstopping stream of curse words. I ran down the stairs and threw my arms around his neck. "Thank God" I said. He was safe in my arms once more.

Because of you
Because of you