J'ai besoin de toi mon amour (I Need You My Love)

The Character to the left? Yea, pretend that's you:) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Lets act this out as you as my main character; if you're a girl. So you just moved from New York, NY to San Diego, CA; not much of a population difference. You were born in New England, but naturally new French and Italian, British came from your home country. You and your parents never had a close relationship, but after the divorce between them ya'll never spoke a word to each other, and if ya'll did.... It would turn into an argument. You find yourself going on a roller-coaster; like always. BTW, there's fantasy involved:)
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Main Character--->You(Trinity): 5'3 feet tall, big hazel eyes, skinny body, 14 years old, Freshmen, unique, hard to figure out, and running through you're confusing horrible life. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
You're looking out your window not even daring to speak to your mother. You're driving in a U-Haul truck to your new house in California Ever since the divorce between your parents, your mom has been acting like a h0e.
"So Sweetheart....." You were startled that she started the conversation first, because normally you do. But you just decided to go along with it.
"Yes mother?"
"What do you think about the big move?"
You looked at her with rage and fiery wanting to yell at her. 'Now all of a sudden you care what I think? What the heck!?'(thinking to yourself). You turn back towards your window and find yourself talking to much... "Well mother, let me think about this. Oh yea! I hate that we're moving, I hate that you act like a 304 now, I hate how you act like you never loved dad, I hate how dad moved across the world, and I hate my mother effing life just like I hate you!"
You saw her grip the steering wheel tighter, you can tell she was trying to act calm. "Well dear, might as well tell you now..."
"Tell me what?" You were confused by what she said and wanted to know NOW what she wanted to say. "Tell me what mom?!"
"Well I met this guy; he's really handsome, he lives in Palm Bay-"
"That's in Florida mom..."
"I know that, so I won't be home a lot. I'll try visiting once a week or twice a month-"
You weren't listening to a word she was now saying, you kept thinking 'How could she do that? I'm barely 14(if your not 14, act like it) going to be a Freshmen, what the flip flibbering flabber?! Bad enough I'm moving to a freaking smaller town then New York!" You were doing your best to stay calm not even daring to pay attention to your her. You turned on your iPod and went through your songs till you found 'A Single Moment of Sincerity' by Asking Alexandria:D You plugged in your earphones and turned the volume up full blast.
You could tell your mom was still talking but you didn't care what she saying right now. This is too much for you take in all at once, so you picked up your notebook and started writing out,
'My life is a Blur
Insanity is close
I'm lost in this world
What to do with myself
Myself is atypical
Everybody else is accustomed
What to do with my daring life
With a mother as a 304
And her leaving me away.'
You dropped your pencil and bent down to pick it up. The handle of the door caught your earplug and pulled it out just in time when your mother said "I'm getting married".
You pulled out your other earplug quickly and didn't even think before you said "Not even a month after your divorced from father and you're getting married again?! Are you going to leave me in San Diego all by my flibbering self so you can go be with your 'FAKE LOVER'!?"
She gripped the wheel tighter and you can tell she was trying to act calm.
"No sweetie, I got us a big house. I hired maids, butlers, security, and your own personal driver. Your not going to be alone either, you will have friends and they can come over any time you want them too, okay." She looked and you and smiled then turned back towards the road still smiling. You thought she was insane, since you're only 14 why would she leave you alone?
"Yea, good bloody parenting mom. 14 years of age, and the daughter of 29 year old. You must have been popping pills or something when you got pregnant at 15. I mean really, if I wasn't even born, you would be so freaking happy!"
"Young lady, your sister;Brittney and brothers;Tyler, Alex, Aiden, Tristan, Andy,&Zack are moving in too."
"So my sister and brothers, all under the age of 21, and they're going to be living with me? How lovely! They moved out with their friends when they were 14, why can't I do that! I could've lived with Dawn in New York! Her parents even said they would adopt me!"
"Trinity!(If it's not your name, just act like it)"
"You didn't care for Brittney, Tyler, Alex, Aiden, Tristan, Andy, or Zack?! So why in the bloody murder are you going to care for me?! Answer that my so called 'Mother'!"
"You're my last child Trinity! You know I tried having kids again and they only died after they were born! You remember that?! I was going to name the boys Zaine and Trent! But no! They died 30 minutes after they were born!"
You remembered that day so well... You were at the hospital and your mom was going into labor.
Your sisters and brothers were all there with you. You're father didn't even bother to come, because he thought the twins weren't his. You got up and decided to go wait outside of your mothers hospital room instead of the 'Waiting Room'. You went down a few hallways till the doctor grabbed you aside as he was fixing to walk into your mothers room. His words were clear "Your mother has nobody in there with her and she needs somebody there with her. She said isn't pushing till one of her kids or husband is here. Your the only one close by right now so please do this for the sake of her and the twins." You looked at him and nodded slowely; you were only 12.
You walked in and the doctor rushed over to your mother. You got beside her hospital bed and she grabbed for your hand and gripped it hard. So many things went by so fast you couldn't keep up with anything except the screaming of your mom.
After 8 hours of being at the hospital, and 2 hours of labor, the twins were born. They let you cut the umbilical cord and your mom let you hold the Zaine first while she held Trent. Zaine had pretty blue eyes, but Trent had hazel eyes.
After 25 minutes, the nurses and doctor ran in. They said that Trent had stopped breathing. They ran him out of the room on a stroller thingy.
You went running to Zaine on the other side of the room. Just when you got to the cart, he blinked at you with those pretty blue eyes calmly, then closed his eyes. More nurses came running in, and Zaine had stopped breathing also. They rushed him out just as they did with Trent. Your mother didn't look worried one bit.. She was just laying there looking out the window. You were actually crying and after awhile, you ran out of the room.
10 minutes later you found the doctor, "Doctor Shine! Where are my brothers!?" He looked at you and then looked behind you, but you didn't care who he was looking at, you just wanted him to tell you where your brothers were.
"I'm sorry little Trinity, but they clearing throat died..." You're eyes got more wattery, and you started running.
You ran into a room and sat there in the corner crying. It was dark and you thought nobody could hear you, until a guy who looked a year or two older than you walked in; you could tell by his voice. "Hey what's the matter?" He said it so calmly, but you just got up to find everything go into a blur. You ended waking up on a hospital bed, with your sister Brittney there and two random strangers who were twins. You kept asking about Zaine and Trent, but Brittney would look at the twins then you and say "They passed away to heaven, where God is Trinity."
That was the last thing you remembered from the hospital, after that.... everything was a mixup of different things happening, but you can't form it in numerical order. You realized your eyes were watery and you looked at your mom and said "I'm sorry for everything that just happened and what happened at the hospital that day."
Your mother looked at you for a second then looked back at the road, "None of this is your fault, so don't be sorry. I'm sorry I'm leaving you, but I'm in love sweetheart."
"Mom, you were in love with dad. You had 7 kids with him, including me it's 8. Zaine and Trent would've made it 10.... So are you going to have 10 new kids with this guy?" You tryed staying calm, because you hate when you started aruging with your mother.
She looked calm, "I don't know dear, maybe I will, maybe I won't. Who knows."
This angered you quite a bit, "Who knows?! You freaking know mom!"
"No I don't, if one thing leads to another-"
You interrupted her, "You're effing marrying him! Bloody Murder! Of course ya'll are going to have kids! Ya'll aren't going to use protection!"
"His name is Nick, so please quit referring him as 'him'. He has a name."
"I'll call 'him' whatever the flibbering fitch I want to call him! There's nothing you can do about it either!"
"Young lady! You will listen to me! You're not going to be a rebel like your brothers and sister!"
"Well too late mom! I'm already a rebel if I tryed weed!"
"What?!"
"You heard me! I got curious and decided to try it!" You knew you didn't just try it one time, but you were addicted for a year, until you turned 14.
"As soon as we get to our new house, you're going to unpack your stuff and go to your room, while I am talking to Nick!"
"So I unpack all my stuff to my room, or whatever room is left, while you have moan Nicks name? Okay I'm good with that."
"Trinity Alexia Hernandez!"
"Rayleen Alyssa Cortez!"
"Do not use my full name! I am your mother and you are to call me as 'Mother' or 'Mom'!"
"You use my full name, so I decided to use yours!"
"I have the right to! I'm the parent and your the child!"
"You're the 304 and I'm the angel!"
"Trinity!"
"Rayleen!"
"Stop it this instant!"
"No! You can't make me!"
sighs"I'm the mother!"
"I'm the daughter and have the right to call CPS!" You pull out your phone and start dialing the number till she grabs it out of your hand. "What the eff!?"
"I am not having you taken away from me!"
"You don't even give a dime towards me!"
"Yes I do!"
"No you motha' freaking don't!"
"Trinity!"
"Rayleen!"
"Please quit saying I don't care when I really do!"
"No you don't! If you even gave a penny towards me, you would live with me, Brittney, Tyler, Alex, Aiden, Tristan, Andy, and Zack! But no! You'd rather live with Nick in Florida!"
"I told you I'm going to visit once a week or twice a month!"
"That will end up turning into one a month or maybe three times a year, if we're lucky!"
"I promise I'm going to visit once a week!"
"You're going to break that promise! I already know you!"
"I am not!"
"Mom! I know you! You always break your promises! That's why I never count on you!"
"You need to start counting on me!"
"Why?! So you can break my promise like you broke Brittneys!"
"That wasn't my fault!"
"Yes it bloody mother was!"
"NO IT WASN'T!"
"Ti odio! Devi solo agire come si cura di me perché io voglio i miei soldi! Proprio come mia sorella e fratelli! Ti comporti come se l'amore a tutti noi quando si è in realtà solo noi usando!"
"Don't go speaking Italian on me young lady!"
"Qu'en est-il français?! Qu'est-ce que tu veux de moi?! "
"No French either!"
"You don't even understand me mom, so why the swenty switch does it matter?!"
"Because you can be cursing me out for all I know!"
"Exactly! That's why I love knowing three languages!"
"We're not in the United Kingdom anymore! Quite speaking British!"
"WHY?! I was born there! I liked it there better! But no! We had to move to America when I was 4! Why?!"
"Because your father and I wanted to!"
"Bloody mother!"
"We live in America to be free!!"
"You live in America to be a 304!"
"Young lady!"
"Mother!"
"Quit arguing with me!"
"I will when you stop yelling!"
You realized your mother has stopped yelling but her hands are gripped tightly around the steering wheel. You cross your arms and look at the front window furiously, like as if your eyes are going to burn a hole into the window.
You start thinking back to when you were 3 years old, when you still lived in Camberwell, Greater London, United Kingdom. Your Aunt Raven would always take you for a walk in the City. You're favorite street was King William Street, every-time you walked with Aunt Raven on that street, there was this cute little boy that would be walking with some strange adult. He would look at you kindly with his big blue eyes. One day, he came up to you and gave you a simple four leaf clover with a dandelion attached around it. You smiled at him politely and quietly said "Thank you darlin'". He smiled back at you and walked away towards his master. The master he went towards was a strange adult, he didn't smile or even say hello to you. You thought that anybody that didn't smile was strange.
Your mothers car came towards a slow stop and you came back into reality. You realized ya'll were stuck in traffic.
"Really traffic now?"
"You're so impatient Trinity."
"I am impatient because I get it from father."
"One of the less attractive things about you."
"What?.."
"Nothing dear."
Ya'll went into another awkward silence. You started thinking about how you have an Italian ascent, but you were born in London, UK, and you naturally knew how to speak French.
"Mother..."
"Yes dear?"
You hated how ya'll went from arguing to a calm conversation, it's like a women pregnant with triplets while on her period and she's bo-polar."Why do I have an Italian ascent, yet I was born in the UK, and I naturally knew how to speak French since I learned my first word?"
Your mother looked at you then back towards the traffic ahead. She didn't speak. You were staring at her to try to get an answer to come out of her, but still nothing. You knew she was coming up with an excuse to tell you, like always.
Ya'll were passing through the traffic slowly, you looked out your window to see three cars crashed together. One was a red 2011 Chevrolet Cruze, and the back of the car was smashed in. Another was a white 2010 Kia Soul, the car was split in two. Also a greenish-yellow 2011 Ford Fiesta, 3/4 of the car was smashed. You gasped in sight of the horror. You just couldn't imagine how bad the people were hurt, knowing that one car was split in two.
"See that."
You turned towards your mother and back towards the crash "Yes."
"That's what happens to young ladies that act like rebels."
You looked at her with disgust, but decided to play along to just to p!ss her off. "Oh yes mother."
"One day that will happen to you, if you don't quit acting like a rebel."
"Well it'll happen in the future, because I'll always be a rebel my dear mother."
"Well I hope you're happy about that."
"Oh yes mother, I'm quite fascinated by the idea of dying as a proud rebel."
"Well let's hope you don't go with the devil now."
This made you furious a bit, so you decided to get real. "Why? If I go to the devil, I'll be burning for eternity with you." You knew saying this was going to start an argument, but you didn't care.
"I'm not going to the devil, I'm going to heaven. You,well, let's hope God has a big enough heart to fit you in."
You couldn't believe what she just said. You just looked at her and simply said "Pregherò per te mamma, tu bisogno di Gesù.".
"No Italian speaking, what did you say?"
"I said I love you mother", you knew you lied to her, but you didn't care.
"Oh" was all she said.
You were quiet through the rest of the traffic and after an hour of getting through traffic, there was still silence in the U-Haul truck. You knew that your mother wasn't going to start the conversation again so you grabbed your iPod Touch, put your earphones in your ears, then started listening to 'Crystal Lake ft. Renana & Nati Hasid - Israel Girls (Hands Up Mix)'.
30 minutes later, you drifted off to sleep from listening to 'Seven Years-Saosin'.
The last thing that went running through your mind was of that little boy that gave you a four leaf clover with a dandelion back in your home country.