my life

I will warn you this is not nice and it is not easy for me to talk about I'm already trying to keep myself together while writing this

well I was always bullied through my whole life at school so people wonder why I am so distant all the time. my friends were never really my friends but they used to beat me up if I did not hang around with them and give them my dinner money (yes when I was younger I ended up going in hospital due to anorexia because I did not eat). I eventually just stopped going to school.

I had this next door neighbour who was an old man- he abu*d me sxually, physically and mentally for over 5 years every day (this started when I was 10)

I was in and out of court after I told someone about what was happening for about a year and he still got found not guilty.

Quite a few of the people I have been out with have beaten me and told me nasty thing (I do not really want to repeat them).

I am unable to have children as my reproductive organs have been damaged.

I have been keeping this to myself for so long that it has drained every ounce of energy to just keep going.

I have tried to kill myself twice (nearly succeeded both times but was found).

I have been in and out of therapy since the age of 16 (which was when I actually told anyone- that is when the abuse stopped)

I am sorry if I have upset anyone on here but it is just nice to be able to vent it all out without being criticized. Thank you for listening and I am truly sorry if i do upset anyone.