IDK what the name of this should be

I have it up to my head. You stand there smiling while saying you wont do it i know you wont. Then you see me laying there on the clod lifeless floor. You cry, you think I am dead. Ha, I laugh at you and all your nonscence. I am alive you fool as I sit up with a bullet hole through my chest. I did this because of you. You stare in shack when you see me standing there in front of you talking. You ask me "What did you do?" I laugh in amazement that you don't know what the desire and want can do to some one i might bring them back to life or kill them. My ditsier and want was you now what would be your excuse.