She can have you. (a not-so happy love story)
This is a true story. Not for pity, but maybe for advice on what I should do. I need to tell somebody whats inside of my mind before it blows up.
Chapter 1
Whatever it takes.
I just started high school in Scottsdale Arizona. Its definitely different than anything i had ever experienced before, and I bet you can imagine how hard for me it was to start in a new school alone. All my classes are full of annoyingly loud people that all know each other, which made things harder. Naturally, I would take a good look at all the cute guys and imagine myself with them. All that really meant nothing to me. Days passed and people passed. I noticed that a guy in my German class had been staring at me quite a lot. I'm normally a quiet person, so I smiled and looked away. This went on for more weeks and I began to be more and more interested in this guy with the long hair, band t-shirts, and vans. He was quiet too. His expression looked permanently blank. Something about him attracted me.
I had made a new friend, named Julia. She invited me to go to a song writer night at the school, where students show of their skills and play music that they write. It had showed me that every student, regardless of what they look like, have something special within that they may not want to show. Anyways, the last band playing was a very unique one. I did not hear the music. I felt it. It was quite the extraordinary experience. I had looked up and saw that the person playing the drums, amazingly, was the guy from my German class. At that moment, so many thoughts went through my head. I could hardly breathe. Right after the band stopped playing, I saw that the guy looked straight at me, then quickly looked away. I flushed a strange shade of pink, then pulled myself back together before I got up and left.
The net morning I woke up to a friend request on facebook. I saw the picture and my stomach started turning. It was him. I accepted it and began the stalking. Quickly, I caught on that he was definitely not shy. He was actually funny and had an amazing taste in music (for a guy). But i saw something that made me feel numb. He was 'in a relationship'. Damn. Days passed, and then one Saturday night I said 'hey c:' to him on chat. He quickly wrote back. I couldn't help but smile widely. We started to get to know each other and by midnight it felt as if we had known each other for years rather than hours. I noticed that he had been acting sort of flirty. I didn't mind much. He asked for my number and I gave it to him. We texted all Sunday and on Sunday night he told me the news. He broke up with his girlfriend.
I was terribly happy on Monday. I had a grin etched on my face. We texted a lot. We talked about everything possible. He was like my dream come true. He played bass, guitar, and drums. He loved to travel. And he loved going to concerts and raves. He asked me if i wanted to hang out with him after school someday, and I said that we should. He showed me that he did like me, without actually saying it. The way he spoke, the way he cared, the way he was dazzling me with his amazingness. Thursday night, we were having quite a swell conversation. Once it got awkward, I did whatever it took to save it by saying "So whats new?" and his response was "I got back with my girlfriend". I did not reply. I fought back tears, but I surrendered because it hurt too much. It was true. Friday was the homecoming football game, and refused to go but Julia forced me to. I saw him and his girlfriend together. He looked and me. I looked back but i didn't smile. Instead I walked away. Julia then said "I think that guy is starring at you..." All i said was "I know."
I had made a new friend, named Julia. She invited me to go to a song writer night at the school, where students show of their skills and play music that they write. It had showed me that every student, regardless of what they look like, have something special within that they may not want to show. Anyways, the last band playing was a very unique one. I did not hear the music. I felt it. It was quite the extraordinary experience. I had looked up and saw that the person playing the drums, amazingly, was the guy from my German class. At that moment, so many thoughts went through my head. I could hardly breathe. Right after the band stopped playing, I saw that the guy looked straight at me, then quickly looked away. I flushed a strange shade of pink, then pulled myself back together before I got up and left.
The net morning I woke up to a friend request on facebook. I saw the picture and my stomach started turning. It was him. I accepted it and began the stalking. Quickly, I caught on that he was definitely not shy. He was actually funny and had an amazing taste in music (for a guy). But i saw something that made me feel numb. He was 'in a relationship'. Damn. Days passed, and then one Saturday night I said 'hey c:' to him on chat. He quickly wrote back. I couldn't help but smile widely. We started to get to know each other and by midnight it felt as if we had known each other for years rather than hours. I noticed that he had been acting sort of flirty. I didn't mind much. He asked for my number and I gave it to him. We texted all Sunday and on Sunday night he told me the news. He broke up with his girlfriend.
I was terribly happy on Monday. I had a grin etched on my face. We texted a lot. We talked about everything possible. He was like my dream come true. He played bass, guitar, and drums. He loved to travel. And he loved going to concerts and raves. He asked me if i wanted to hang out with him after school someday, and I said that we should. He showed me that he did like me, without actually saying it. The way he spoke, the way he cared, the way he was dazzling me with his amazingness. Thursday night, we were having quite a swell conversation. Once it got awkward, I did whatever it took to save it by saying "So whats new?" and his response was "I got back with my girlfriend". I did not reply. I fought back tears, but I surrendered because it hurt too much. It was true. Friday was the homecoming football game, and refused to go but Julia forced me to. I saw him and his girlfriend together. He looked and me. I looked back but i didn't smile. Instead I walked away. Julia then said "I think that guy is starring at you..." All i said was "I know."



4 Comments
Tell him how you feel and see what he says.If he really likes you he'll got to you but then again if he only likes you but loves her he'll stay with her and tell you.Life is full of pain but love is worth the chance.
Thanks c: I'm pretty desperate, so I guess that's my only choice...
Anytime
i think he fell out of love and in to like hos fellings masking how he really fells he fell in love with u an d into like with her. nextthing u know there gonna break up again then u two will becom wayyy close but just 4 him to get back to gether in the end. talk to him it might turn out in your faver he might justloke her but LOVE you.