The Song That Changed my life
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TVZ1Qf32NA0
I guess you really did it this time
Left yourself in your warpath
Lost your balance on a tightrope
Lost your mind tryin' to get it back
Wasn't it easier in your lunchbox days?
Always a bigger bed to crawl into
Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything
And everybody believed in you
It's alright, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been.
You're still an innocent,
You're still an innocent.
Did some things you can't speak of
But at night you live it all again
You wouldn't be shattered on the floor now
If only you would seen what you know now then
Wasn't it easier in your firefly-catchin' days?
When everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you
Wasn't it beautiful runnin' wild 'til you fell asleep
Before the monsters caught up to you?
It's alright, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent
It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did.
You're still an innocent.
Time turns flames to embers
You'll have new Septembers
Every one of us has messed up too
Lives change like the weather
I hope you remember
Today is never too late to....
BE BRAND NEW!
It's alright, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent.
It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent.
You're still an innocent.
Lost your balance on a tightrope.
It's never too late to get it back.
I thought that i could never be a good person. I thought that my past was too scary. i thought the things i did were unforgivable, and i spent every second trying to make up for it. I thought that i had to make myself suffer, and i couldnt let myselft be happy and i couldnt let anyone love me becuase of where ive been and what ive seen.
but i realize now that its not my fault. and these things happened, but they dont define who i am... it might be a part of who i am, but its not the only thing.
and i used to act like the complete opposite of myself becuase in that way i could be detachted from myself, and i could maybe pretend every once and a while that i was someone else. i used to have some kind of need to be perfect, because that way, i could be better, and in that way i could only be equal to everyone else becuase to was something wrong with me... and i couldnt figure out what. and it was so much easier to pretend there was nothing else going on. i didnt want anyone to see past my disguise. it was easier to let them form an opinion of the disguise because it wasn't me, and that way nobody could reject the real me. and i was safe, but i was nothing. it was easier to shut everyone out.
but i realize now that... how is anyone sopposed to love you if they don't know who you are? All that crap about being yourself the teachers and your parents tell you on your first day of school... is true. isn't it better to have somebody, anybody, who really cares about you, and lets you know that it is possible for someone to love you better than talking to people that you really dont like and are too shallow to like you everyday? and i know a lot of people who have told me they love me and i wouldnt beleive them.
for one becuase they didn't really know me, and for two becuase if they did... i didnt beleive they could understand or feel the same way about that person. so i shut them out. and i havent realized until recently that i couldve really hurt those people. and im sorry. but i thought i was doing you a favor.
and i think now that most of the mistakes ive made i made trying to make up for other mistakes, and i was wrong. and that doesnt make me a bad person either. i was just rying to figure out who i am. this song helped me figure out who i am. im still figuring it out as we're going along, and im still becoming a new person everyday, because everyday is brand new day and everyday is a shiny new second chance and everyday is a chance for you to stop dwelling on the mistakes you've made and start focusing on not making anymore. and we are who we are. the only mistake you can make is not being your best.
I guess you really did it this time
Left yourself in your warpath
Lost your balance on a tightrope
Lost your mind tryin' to get it back
Wasn't it easier in your lunchbox days?
Always a bigger bed to crawl into
Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything
And everybody believed in you
It's alright, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been.
You're still an innocent,
You're still an innocent.
Did some things you can't speak of
But at night you live it all again
You wouldn't be shattered on the floor now
If only you would seen what you know now then
Wasn't it easier in your firefly-catchin' days?
When everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you
Wasn't it beautiful runnin' wild 'til you fell asleep
Before the monsters caught up to you?
It's alright, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent
It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did.
You're still an innocent.
Time turns flames to embers
You'll have new Septembers
Every one of us has messed up too
Lives change like the weather
I hope you remember
Today is never too late to....
BE BRAND NEW!
It's alright, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent.
It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent.
You're still an innocent.
Lost your balance on a tightrope.
It's never too late to get it back.
I thought that i could never be a good person. I thought that my past was too scary. i thought the things i did were unforgivable, and i spent every second trying to make up for it. I thought that i had to make myself suffer, and i couldnt let myselft be happy and i couldnt let anyone love me becuase of where ive been and what ive seen.
but i realize now that its not my fault. and these things happened, but they dont define who i am... it might be a part of who i am, but its not the only thing.
and i used to act like the complete opposite of myself becuase in that way i could be detachted from myself, and i could maybe pretend every once and a while that i was someone else. i used to have some kind of need to be perfect, because that way, i could be better, and in that way i could only be equal to everyone else becuase to was something wrong with me... and i couldnt figure out what. and it was so much easier to pretend there was nothing else going on. i didnt want anyone to see past my disguise. it was easier to let them form an opinion of the disguise because it wasn't me, and that way nobody could reject the real me. and i was safe, but i was nothing. it was easier to shut everyone out.
but i realize now that... how is anyone sopposed to love you if they don't know who you are? All that crap about being yourself the teachers and your parents tell you on your first day of school... is true. isn't it better to have somebody, anybody, who really cares about you, and lets you know that it is possible for someone to love you better than talking to people that you really dont like and are too shallow to like you everyday? and i know a lot of people who have told me they love me and i wouldnt beleive them.
for one becuase they didn't really know me, and for two becuase if they did... i didnt beleive they could understand or feel the same way about that person. so i shut them out. and i havent realized until recently that i couldve really hurt those people. and im sorry. but i thought i was doing you a favor.
and i think now that most of the mistakes ive made i made trying to make up for other mistakes, and i was wrong. and that doesnt make me a bad person either. i was just rying to figure out who i am. this song helped me figure out who i am. im still figuring it out as we're going along, and im still becoming a new person everyday, because everyday is brand new day and everyday is a shiny new second chance and everyday is a chance for you to stop dwelling on the mistakes you've made and start focusing on not making anymore. and we are who we are. the only mistake you can make is not being your best.
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did anyone ever tell you to start taking your own advice?