My Supposed Insanity (Not a story, an actual factual thing)
I might be going insane
So ... firstly, thanks for taking a look at this. Secondly, Quibblo is my second home. And finally, my second home might be driving me toward insanity.
Lately, despite Ripple's posting about 'turning Quibblo around,' (which was undeniably accurate) I feel more alone than ever.
Being ignored, being put-down, being hated for being unique. Is this how all normal teenagers should feel? Or is it just me?
I'd like to thank those who've helped me along when I've been temporarily depressed, and put me back on my feet. But now ... now I just feel as though Quibblo is making me too sad for the majority of the time.
People just ... I don't really want to say this, but I have to if I want to get my message across. People just need to be respectful of others. Now, I'm not referring to anyone in particular, but I feel as though many people on Quibblo don't want me here anymore, or maybe I'm just feeling as though I shouldn't be here anymore.
There will come the day when I'll be too old to be a frequent Quibblo user, but I hope that won't be for another ten years or so.
Anyway, I don't even know why anyone would care about this ... maybe I AM going insane! But all the negativity certainly has impacted on me greatly ... that, and also Chatzy.
Now, I know I've said some stuff about Chatzy in another thing, and apparently that helped, but I don't really want to go on Chatzy anymore. It's just ... the instant messaging format doesn't really go with me, and I feel either 1. ignored 2. stupid, or 3. awkward whenever I'm talking to anyone on there who thinks I'm a freakish weirdo for saying stupid stuff which I probably regret ...
I try to stay positive! Yeah, it's hard! If you'd read my journal of my holiday that I'll put up here later, you might figure out some facts. I'm not who you think. I'm not the happy-happy friendly person I am on Quibblo. In fact, I'm the complete opposite in real life! I'm ignorant, rude, impolite and EXTREMELY antisocial.
I've said this many times before, but you can say stuff on Quibblo, and nobody will judge you or make fun of you. ANYONE HAS THE POTENTIAL. Someone could always make fun of you, at anytime! Perhaps it's just that one of my best friends is going out with someone who has the most horrible reputation, or my other friend, who is going through a really tough time and she can't talk about it ... even to me. I've always been her friend, and always will be, but is that also impacting on how I act? Other people's sadness?
I'm so stupid. Just admit it. Everyone (at least most people, anyway) on this site is wonderful, but I just bring everything down. Everything I do annoys everyone else. Just my horrible personality, and stupid things I say. Why am even writing this, you may ask. I DON'T EVEN KNOW! I'm just so angry, I suppose!
Grr ... I wouldn't probably consider going stereotypical emo or suicidal, but I just overreact ALL THE TIME which is so damn annoying! I get scared over little things ... I'm going insane. I can't think straight.
BLAH BLAH BLAH Maybe I should go and live in a hole. Perhaps I should do that now actually ... goodbye. I'll try not to rant for the rest of my Quibblo-life, if I can help it soooo .... Go ahead. write a nasty comment, I'll take it into account.
Written by a mentally-insane 14year old girl who doesn't know where to go.
Ash
Lately, despite Ripple's posting about 'turning Quibblo around,' (which was undeniably accurate) I feel more alone than ever.
Being ignored, being put-down, being hated for being unique. Is this how all normal teenagers should feel? Or is it just me?
I'd like to thank those who've helped me along when I've been temporarily depressed, and put me back on my feet. But now ... now I just feel as though Quibblo is making me too sad for the majority of the time.
People just ... I don't really want to say this, but I have to if I want to get my message across. People just need to be respectful of others. Now, I'm not referring to anyone in particular, but I feel as though many people on Quibblo don't want me here anymore, or maybe I'm just feeling as though I shouldn't be here anymore.
There will come the day when I'll be too old to be a frequent Quibblo user, but I hope that won't be for another ten years or so.
Anyway, I don't even know why anyone would care about this ... maybe I AM going insane! But all the negativity certainly has impacted on me greatly ... that, and also Chatzy.
Now, I know I've said some stuff about Chatzy in another thing, and apparently that helped, but I don't really want to go on Chatzy anymore. It's just ... the instant messaging format doesn't really go with me, and I feel either 1. ignored 2. stupid, or 3. awkward whenever I'm talking to anyone on there who thinks I'm a freakish weirdo for saying stupid stuff which I probably regret ...
I try to stay positive! Yeah, it's hard! If you'd read my journal of my holiday that I'll put up here later, you might figure out some facts. I'm not who you think. I'm not the happy-happy friendly person I am on Quibblo. In fact, I'm the complete opposite in real life! I'm ignorant, rude, impolite and EXTREMELY antisocial.
I've said this many times before, but you can say stuff on Quibblo, and nobody will judge you or make fun of you. ANYONE HAS THE POTENTIAL. Someone could always make fun of you, at anytime! Perhaps it's just that one of my best friends is going out with someone who has the most horrible reputation, or my other friend, who is going through a really tough time and she can't talk about it ... even to me. I've always been her friend, and always will be, but is that also impacting on how I act? Other people's sadness?
I'm so stupid. Just admit it. Everyone (at least most people, anyway) on this site is wonderful, but I just bring everything down. Everything I do annoys everyone else. Just my horrible personality, and stupid things I say. Why am even writing this, you may ask. I DON'T EVEN KNOW! I'm just so angry, I suppose!
Grr ... I wouldn't probably consider going stereotypical emo or suicidal, but I just overreact ALL THE TIME which is so damn annoying! I get scared over little things ... I'm going insane. I can't think straight.
BLAH BLAH BLAH Maybe I should go and live in a hole. Perhaps I should do that now actually ... goodbye. I'll try not to rant for the rest of my Quibblo-life, if I can help it soooo .... Go ahead. write a nasty comment, I'll take it into account.
Written by a mentally-insane 14year old girl who doesn't know where to go.
Ash
20 Comments
Ash, I knw how u feel. Remember wht I had told u? Abt changing 2 who I really am? Well, stop masking urself. B who u r and dont b afraid.AND UR NOT MENTALLY INSANE!!!! ur just stressed and mad. U don't bring evrything down!!! U don't annoy me!!!! For dammits sake, ur one of mi best friends on here!!!!! Ur not insane!!! And as 4 negativity thts normal.
No 1 on here is who they really r. We all hav a mask on and hide who we really r. Try being a lil more positive abt urself.
-sophia
Ash, I love you I am so sorry that you feel this way hugs
I will always be here for you :(( sorry I don't know what else to write)
I honestly have no idea what to say here so hugs?
You're one of the most amazing and awesome people on Quibblo! I dunno if I'm the person who made you feel... unloved, which most people on here probably thinks I am, but yeah, you stay here for a reason. You have a lot of friends that will cheer you up if anyone ever makes you upset. Look on the brighter side!
I don't think you are stupid... I've always thought of you as funny and cool! I tend not to judge much and from what I've heard and seen about you, you seem awesome! I've never seen you be mean to anyone, and sometimes, well, peoples outside lives are different than their lives on Quibblo. Outside, sometimes, I'll admit I'm not the nicest person you could meet.
Plus, I've been having very scary flashbacks and short panic attacks about a past that I can't even remember. It's freaking me out...
Ash, you don't annoy me! I think you're amazing! I don't give a damn if away from Quibblo you're a serial-killer who obsesses over Justin Beaver, to me, you're intelligent, funny, creative and free-spirited. You're one of my best friends on here, of course you don't bring everyone down!
Maybe you just feel like I do. To me, it seems like everyone around me is so certain of what to do, everyone seems to know the rules of life. (Continued.)
But me, I feel like I just scrape through life by avoiding the wrong questions and hiding behind other people. Everyone else seems so certain of themselves while I have no idea in hell how I'm supposed to act. This is why I feel so stupid and boring all of the time, but I'm not. You're not. God dammit girl, you just need to accept how amazing you really are!
Ash,
U DNT ANNOY MEEEE!!!!!!!!! D: i luv u (lik a frend of courze) ur a great person! ur so nice and everything...hooz been mean 2 u? ill giv thm a piece of my mind! D:
hey now :) don't go live in a hole! you're a wonderful person and I enjoy your company on this site!!
Your not annyoing! And dont live in a hole!