CoLd To ThE ToUcH [The Life Of A Teenager]

As my mind wondered my eyes sank deep into the back of his head,starring daringly at what could be my future. My head dropped forward as my mind quickly shot me down. "Your not worth it" I tell myself. Tapping my pen on my desk I looked back up at him. Letting out a painful sigh I felt that bitterness inside of my chest,right where my heart should be. Beating,telling me what to chase and what not to. Not my heart,it remained still. Cold and motionless. A sharp pain went through my chest as I saw a girl approach him. Her hair curled with care and her cheeks smooth and flawless. Her smile made her whole face lighten up and blended in. A burning came pushing up inside of me as I moaned to myself,I looked at myself. I wasn't much to look at in the first place. As being a young teenager,i had acne. Noticeable yes. The pickings made me feel so worthless. As my eyes studied the flawless girl I shied away from eye contact. Trying to make myself invisible I put my head under my arms. I huffed as I told myself. "This is so stupid" As a ringing shook my head up I looked around to see the class pouring out to head to the buses. I sigh pulling my hood over my horrid face. Picking my book bag up I kept my face hidden. "Curse her with her perfect body,and beautiful smile" I said aloud as the class was pretty much empty now. I felt tears weld up in my eyes and I quickly wiped them away. I hurried my way out of class making sure to keep my face hidden. As of now I felt so semiconscious. I made my way up the hallway. Walking alone I lifted my head just enough to see where i was going. I wiped at my eyes again,and sniffled trying not to let anyone see me. As I made my way to the buses I caught sight of him,now was my chance. Yet my body wouldn't dare go near him. I shook my head and scowled myself. "Not now."