My Life...Please Read
Fvck my life....
How would you like it if you lived with idiots? I'm sick of being abused, yelled at, crying myself to sleep every single night. It sucks. I can't tell you how many times I just wanna kill myself to escape this hell I live in...I can't tell you how many times I tried. I tried setting myself on fire (I have burn scars...) How many times I've tried to run across the street, hoping to get hit. How many times I've tried to kill myself. I don't have anything except my friends here and my 2 other friends. I'm sick of being told to shut the fvck up, worthless git, go to hell, die, I hate you, if you want someone to care about you go die then! If I could father...if I could. My twin brother, well...he's dying from cancer, I can't do anything about that. My dogs, well I hate them...they suck, they bite, they don't care...Quibblo is my only place where I can relieve stress from home, school and such. I really hate life...what should I do? Listen to Simple Plan, 3 Days Grace, BVB and belt out the lyrics? Well I always do that...If I could, I would just grab the knife off my dresser and stab every single one of the people who abuse me, father, aunt, bullies....then I'll be a killer, a murderer....
What happened?
You told me you love me
You told me I was the only one
Until she came along
The sister
The idiot
My life turned
You loved her
I was just a rag now
Torn away
Well it's okay
I'm nothing at all anymore
Everything you say
Everything you do
Everything you love
It isn't me
Only the bad things go to me
I suffer from depression
I suffer from hate
I suffer from my own war
Tonight
I fight once more
I fight the screams
The pain
Then listen to you
As you praise her
her the angel
I'm just left alone
To sulk and weep
in my own tears
I can hardly wait to leave this hell
I can't escape it
No one left
No one here left for me
I'm just me
Worthless git
Shut up
Die
Go away
That's all you say to me
Pain
Hate
Tears
That's all left now
Love
Praises
Laughter
All the things I don't have
I'm a shadow
Just a broken shadow
The dreams where I'm dying are the best I ever have
The dreams where I'm living are the best I ever have
The dreams where I'm killing are the best ever
they are the ones not shattered yet
by you
By you
By you father
by you
What happened?
You told me you love me
You told me I was the only one
Until she came along
The sister
The idiot
My life turned
You loved her
I was just a rag now
Torn away
Well it's okay
I'm nothing at all anymore
Everything you say
Everything you do
Everything you love
It isn't me
Only the bad things go to me
I suffer from depression
I suffer from hate
I suffer from my own war
Tonight
I fight once more
I fight the screams
The pain
Then listen to you
As you praise her
her the angel
I'm just left alone
To sulk and weep
in my own tears
I can hardly wait to leave this hell
I can't escape it
No one left
No one here left for me
I'm just me
Worthless git
Shut up
Die
Go away
That's all you say to me
Pain
Hate
Tears
That's all left now
Love
Praises
Laughter
All the things I don't have
I'm a shadow
Just a broken shadow
The dreams where I'm dying are the best I ever have
The dreams where I'm living are the best I ever have
The dreams where I'm killing are the best ever
they are the ones not shattered yet
by you
By you
By you father
by you
15 Comments
Neare... When I had that dream about you your dad was an ass. Neare... If you go... I go. If it wernt for you, I wouldnt be here. You are the only one who never let me down before. Dont leave.. Please... Or so will I...
I won't...but I will, If I can....kill them all.....
I'll be with you the entire time.
Thanks C... :')
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ory_dS82VNA&feature=related
Always.
Donm't kill them. you wouldn;t have anywher to go, but prison. And that'd be alot worse. Please...don't go...If you go, if you kil them...If you kil oyurself...I'd...Die inside, and then when I couldn't take it anymore, I'd die completely...Please...don't go...I'll help you as best I can
Prision? I'll go to a mental hospital or die first! Yeah, kill ing yourself. Is stupid...like ipods
I wouldn;t do it on purpose...Drowning in sorrow and praying for death isn't exactly doing it yourself. Yeah iPods must be stupid...Like DSis...stupid tiny screams...Crap I meant screans...
Neare, please don't kill them. You would go to juvie or a mental asylum. Please. Go to the cps!! Talk to your school guidance conseular.
Neare please dont go, please dont kill them. not only would you destroy there lives but your only and ours
...I'm really getting mental right now.....
come on you have to fight through this its just a wave and you have us to talk to and help you
Achlys, I'm sick of fighting. I have fought this every single day for the past 3 years....I'm sick of it....I only have you guys, Quibblo, my room, my friends and music to relieve my stress....I rather live in a mental hospital than live with my family....they make fun of me...They make fun of me being emo, they make fun of me listening to rock and such...they make fun of me for having no life....I'm sick of it! So SICK!!!
Read thanks it will make you feel better