Bullying
Please read this carefully
Think about ever word
Tale it seriously
when I was 2 I was admitted to hospital
My kindeys were close to failing
I now suffer from constant UTI's
When I was 5 I was one again admitted to hospital
I was force feed meds to keep me alive and away from a kidney transplant
Ever since then I've had trouble contolling my bladder
I whent to over 3 doctors and specialists to help me
To stop me from wetting during the day and at night
When I was 9 the bullying started
Matt teased me for wetting
I was shy
I was reserved
I didn't have any true friends
I was handling it ok
But it still Hurt
When I was 12 I contemplated suicide
The bullying hadn't stoped
I was still wetting
Still on meds
Still shy and alone
4 years of constant attack
When I was 13-14 I refused to go to school
I would cry at night
I would have no reason to live
I didn't tell a soal about this
When I was 15 he left the school
7 years of the torment
I wasn't happy
I was scared
I can't go out in public without thinking he's around the corner
I can't hang with my friends because I'm terrified I might lose them I they find out how stupid and paranoid I am
I was told that the only way I would ever be intermite with some one was if I was r.aped by a blind man with no sense of smell because I was that ugly
I'm 16 now
I still have nightmares of him
I break down crying at weird points during the day
I have anxiety attacks and start shaking
I stare off blankly into space
I shake when giving a speech in English
I don't trust
I carve words into my stomach and legs
I have to label myself
I'm suicidal again
Just when I was getting better
I avoid mirrors and I can't name one thing I like about myself
People think I'm modest but I just don't believe them when they complement me
I want to get my licence
And run off the road
Think about what you say to people
I may not be being bullyed that bad anymore
But the smallest comment sets me off
What you say sticks with people
Even after years after you've said it
I don't drink at school anymore and are close to getting close to hospital again
I don't eat at all because I want to starve to death
All because of a bully
Think before you speak
You could be the one to push them over the edge
This is my story
Don't make it someone else's
____________________________________________________________
Im sorry zoe that you had to hear my story this way
I haven't ever said it out loud
I dont think I ever can
You have your own problems to deal with
Dont worry about me
Please
I love you to death!
I would happily have Matt back at school If it ment you were safe and happy
I won't off myself
I can't
I'm to weak
I love you
I love you all
Your the reason I'm here
Don't leave me
Take care of yourself
My kindeys were close to failing
I now suffer from constant UTI's
When I was 5 I was one again admitted to hospital
I was force feed meds to keep me alive and away from a kidney transplant
Ever since then I've had trouble contolling my bladder
I whent to over 3 doctors and specialists to help me
To stop me from wetting during the day and at night
When I was 9 the bullying started
Matt teased me for wetting
I was shy
I was reserved
I didn't have any true friends
I was handling it ok
But it still Hurt
When I was 12 I contemplated suicide
The bullying hadn't stoped
I was still wetting
Still on meds
Still shy and alone
4 years of constant attack
When I was 13-14 I refused to go to school
I would cry at night
I would have no reason to live
I didn't tell a soal about this
When I was 15 he left the school
7 years of the torment
I wasn't happy
I was scared
I can't go out in public without thinking he's around the corner
I can't hang with my friends because I'm terrified I might lose them I they find out how stupid and paranoid I am
I was told that the only way I would ever be intermite with some one was if I was r.aped by a blind man with no sense of smell because I was that ugly
I'm 16 now
I still have nightmares of him
I break down crying at weird points during the day
I have anxiety attacks and start shaking
I stare off blankly into space
I shake when giving a speech in English
I don't trust
I carve words into my stomach and legs
I have to label myself
I'm suicidal again
Just when I was getting better
I avoid mirrors and I can't name one thing I like about myself
People think I'm modest but I just don't believe them when they complement me
I want to get my licence
And run off the road
Think about what you say to people
I may not be being bullyed that bad anymore
But the smallest comment sets me off
What you say sticks with people
Even after years after you've said it
I don't drink at school anymore and are close to getting close to hospital again
I don't eat at all because I want to starve to death
All because of a bully
Think before you speak
You could be the one to push them over the edge
This is my story
Don't make it someone else's
____________________________________________________________
Im sorry zoe that you had to hear my story this way
I haven't ever said it out loud
I dont think I ever can
You have your own problems to deal with
Dont worry about me
Please
I love you to death!
I would happily have Matt back at school If it ment you were safe and happy
I won't off myself
I can't
I'm to weak
I love you
I love you all
Your the reason I'm here
Don't leave me
Take care of yourself
14 Comments
Hey People are there in this world to comment.... You are well-off they have to comment..... you are not good in few places they have to comment..... So just Forget them.... Life is too short for hating oneself......
Hey People are there in this world to comment.... You are well-off they have to comment..... you are not good in few places they have to comment..... So just Forget them.... Life is too short for hating oneself......
is this your story, or a friend's story or...? anyways, that's just too bad... i'm really sorry...
My story
That's sad :( I am sorry!
Hey ya know what? Everyone has at least one weakness. I have CP and anxiety issues. There are certain things I cannot do. But you know what pulls all away? Great friends. :) You said you had no friends. Check your friends list again.
Whenever I don't have my friends I swim or If my pool isn't set up I listen to music.
My anxiety almost always takes the best of me. I'm afraid of being sick,vomit,the process of vomiting. I have stage fright and nearly died of a sickness at a few monthes old.
So your not alone :) you know I'm there of ya wanna talk :D
i'm glad your feeling better now.
If there's one thing I hate more than racism and hate itself, it's bullying. If I'd live close to you I would have been your friend no matter what and defend you like there is no tomorrow. It may sound cheesy, but I'm being honest. We all are humans and we all feel. We all have feeling inside those bones and meat. Bullying is dumb (for lack of better word). I also have depression and anxiety, and I know how it feels. It'd be better to numb the pain away, but it's never that easy. =/
that really sucks... i'm seriously not trying to be mean here; don't they have adult diapers?
I thought about suicide too, I can tell you it gets better. If you think everything is at its worst then that only means that it can only go up hill from here. Please dont hurt yourself in any way. I tried to commit suicide too because my parents verballly bullied me. I can tell you suicide is not the answer. Commiting it will only say that they were right. By pushing through you will prove them wrong. What Im saying is that so many people love you so dont throw this away. If you think about it
Please call trecor project. On the line is somone who cares about you. I called and they saved my life. Please call amd dont throw your life away. We were put on this earth for a reason, we all have a place, we just might not have found it yet. So please live your live and I promise it gets better.
Sorry trevor project