Original Songs

Screaming, crying,
Oh how I'm dying...
You've never helped me,
Only shot it all back at me.
Never caring,
Never trying to understand me.

Abusing my trust,
Abusing my hope,
Abusing my care,
Trying to get me to open up,
Well now I'm closed up.
All thanks to you.

I'm never loved,
Never cared for,
Thank you for proving this to me.
Every time I cry and die inside,
All you do is sit there and laugh at my pain.

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Pain is abused,
Tears are shed for you,
But you sit there and ignore me clear.
Giving me only more pain and tears.

Lying and dying,
all through crying.
Do you understand?
Do you care?
Do you know me?
Do you love me?

When have you cared?
Even through tears?
Have you ever loved for me?
Tried for me?
Given up for me?
Died for me?

Once sisters,
Never friends,
Always caring,
Always kind.
Always crying in the others pain.
Always worried for the others tears.

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You've never cared!
Never dared!
Never loved me for me!
Abusing me for all I need.

Dying for you.
Crying for you.
Singing all of this for you.

Living hells,
Living them 'together'.
Who knew you'd begin to cause mine.
Making me live in hell.
Making me die inside each day..

Why you?
Why me?
Why make me feel so terrible?
I thought you were to be trusted!
And now all your doing is abusing...
Me.

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Hiding in my shell,
of the person I once was,
the dreams of who I wanted to become,
crushed,
split,
divided into a million pieces.
All because of...
You.

Never understanding.
Your truth is oh so blinding.
Never loving you.
Never caring for you.
Never needing you.

I hate you.
You hate me.
Don't remind me of what we once had.
Never come back to me.
I hate you.
And I sing for you one last time.

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All the lies,
Said as you looked me in my eyes,
Your blue ones reaching mine.
With care an understanding.
All I've ever done is....
Try.

I've died for you,
Lied for you,
Tried for you,
Cared for you.
Felt pain for you.
And all you do is...
Abuse..

What makes me stay?
What makes me fake a laugh?
What makes me smile?
What makes me care?
What makes me love?
What makes me feel?

I hate you still,
Never caring for your abuse,
And your Karma shall come one day.
But when will that day come?
Will it come sooner?
Or later?
It's all to much to calculate..
I'm never going to love you...

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I want you to die!
Die slowly,
painfully,
terribly.
Why am I such a bad person?
DO YOU SEE WHAT YOU'VE DONE?!

Breaking me apart,
inside and out,
making me die,
physically and emotionally.
Making me cry.
For you and for I.

I wish you were never born.
Then I'd never feel this pain.
I feel like a horrible person because of you.
Your never going to prove to me what I can be.
And I'll never love you again.
What makes you think I'll come back for you?
Save you from the rubble you once lie in?

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Pictures broken,
along with hearts.
Minds shattered,
along with trust.
Eyes opened,
to the horrific truth.

Make up your mind,
you lying,
arrogant,
little backstabbing,
bitch!

Bitch!
Idiot!
Heart breaker!
Dream crusher!
Death itself is no match for the sorrow you bring!

Perfect is never perfect for you,
My best is my worst,
My truth is your lies.
My tears is your amusement.
Why do I exist for your laughter?

My happiness brings you to tears,
my tears bring you a smile,
my pain brings you comfort,
my comfort brings you pain,
my abuse is caused by you.

Why do I hate you?
Why am I incapable of love?
Why do I die inside because of you?
Why am I a terrible person because of you?
Why do I cut because of you?

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Bridge
Tears are forced.
Blood drips.
Eyes are never met again.
And now, because of you, and your abuse,
I'm going to die.

Oh I'm dying inside!
Someone save me from my excessive pain.
And help me be saved from this..
Abuse.