Sacrificing My Love For You {Poem- It's a Sadden One}

I sat on a flat edge
I grumbled at the dark seat
I thought of what possibly I think

would I Survive for another gallon of air
if I was meant to live once again?

how would he dare
how would he sacrifice his heat
like a knife that stabbed me neat
like the passing sharp cold breeze

he sensed me so deep
yet he pinned me till
I limp to the grave
it was I dressed in black and friends there to dare
please listen and they I spare
he forgot my black tears that sucked in misery
and he went with a sour taste that gave him the sword

the sword which gave my heart a deep crush from the core
he say the leaves will drift away soon
and so crossing my arms so I can breathe
breathe the ashes that consumed me free

soon the ache will evaporate
and turn into hatred black
but don’t come by and say
the sword is wrong
it pinned me none
none sense
he was a
mistake
me for too long
was sacrificing the love for him

I rise like a villain
when my anger began to be exploded from him
what
he thought that he still can capture my heart
with his disgraceful hands?
and that sword that drained my blood once?

died once
someone brought me back from the dead
died once
someone caught me from that sword
died once
I repeat the death no more

dressed black was all I had swore
not for grieve but to glue me to unbeaten misery
it’s the world that keeps me chain
I rise alone
lonely left in my shadows
shadows bleed from black polish
it cling in my nails
when I plant a kiss to my pillow
and let out a knife of steel
toward my heart I let it sink
it wasn’t my choice to make
it sank till I couldn’t struggle too much
but then..
a shining path was scattered everywhere
for me like a road of Heaven
for me I rest in peace.