i wish i could of been the one(bill kaulitz)but instead i broke that promise.one-shot

she sits there wishing she would have never messed it up for herself. sticks and stones surround her as she looks at her guilty dark reflection in the water.shes wishes she could have had her love one when she had a chance. but she broke that promise when she broke his beloved heart. she knew she was wrong but she was doing it for her selfish desires. the pain that she feels right now is screaming deep inside of her. bursting threw her veins and making her weak through out her whole body. she spills the tears of the guilt and lack of confidence.each tear she spills each time her life runs out of her bit by bit. a demon took over her which made her do such bad things too people. especially the people she loved themost. the one she truly loved is now gone and no longer hers but someone elses.she shed another tear as she read the letter she had in her forever sacred hand.
DEAR BELINDA,
IM NOT GOING TO MAKE THIS LETTER LONG BUT I JUST HAVE A FEW THINGS THAT INEED TO TELL YOU BEFORE I VANISH FOREVER AWAY FROM YOU AND YOUR CONDEMED HEART.I REALLY DID LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART INTO IT. I KEPT TAKING YOU BACK OVER AND OVER AGIAN AFTER YOU KEPT DOING ME WRONG. I DONT MISS YOU AT ALL AND I DONT LOVE YOU ANYMORE. I JUST WANT TO SAY THAT IM DONE WITH ALL THIS CRAP AND IM LEAVIN YOU FOREVER. I CANT DEAL WITH THIS ANYMORE. I THOUGHT WE WERE SUPPOSE TO BE WILD HORSES ESCAPING INTO THE WIND AND NEVER LET GO OF EACHOTHERS HANDS. BUT I GUESS YOU BLEW THAT CHANCE WHEN YOU CROSS THE LINE. I CANT BELEIVE YOU CHEATED ON ME AND THEN TOLD EVERYBODY THAT I WAS NOTHING TO YOU. WHEN YOU KNEW DEEP INSIDE THAT I WAS SOMETHING AND I DID MATTER. BUT FOR RIGHT NOW YOU DOTN EVEN MATTER TO ME ANYMORE AND I DONT CARE IF I STILL DO MATTER TO YOU. YOU HAVE NO MORE CHANCES. IM DONE WITH EVERYTHING. I DONE ALREADY RIPPED ALL THE PICTURES OFF THE WALL OF YOU AND BURIED THE LOVE I HAD FOR YOU.I HAVE A NEW MISTRESS AND SHES MORE BETTER THEN YOU AND WE ARE GETTING MARRIED TODAY. I JUST WANT TO LET YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE NOTHING BUT IN INVADED SPEICES TO MY HEART AND MY WORLD. BUT REALLY IM DONE AND I WISH YOU WELL BECAUSE I BILL KAULITZ ISNT GOING TO SEE YOU EVER AGIAN.
FROM
NOT YOURS ANYMORE,
BILL KAULITZ.
she was crying over everyword that broke her heart. she placed the broken letter into the water and let it float as she turned around and saw the guy she love and another women getting rice thrown at and getting to a car. she stared into his unwritten eyes. he glanced at her and she turned around and walked away knowing that she will never see him agian.
"i wish i could of been the one bill but instead i broke that promise".she wishpered to herself. placing her own life to an heartbreaking ending forever.