All you love will be lost.

This honestly sucks... I just wish we could go back in time where we had no problems in our relationship.. Like the nights we stayed up until 1 on the phone and the days at aggies and mark twain I just wish I could have all of that back and not have any fighting or questioning or thinking we won't last... I miss the days we were still in love

I walked by the F building today and freaked out, I saw us there again. I thought about the bridge I ended up crying. Then I thought about Mark Twain when I fell into your arms after you just got back from Florida and I broke down.

I can't do this without you, you know me better than anyone else and you're the only person I've ever loved this much. I don't know what I can do about this, I can't just stay in bed all day, I have band camp, I'm not gonna be alive inside after we're over. I can't actually kill myself I promised I wouldn't but it's so tempting.

What can I do? Honestly if you can't handle me right now, I guess that's just that and I need to let go but it's so hard to just let your live go. I'm not sure I can, I don't even know what to do without you telling me you love me when I'm upset. That's how I've been calmed down for almost 5 months now and now all that is getting ripped away from me.

I guess it's true all you love will be lost..