So I think I may be gay...
...Yeeeah... And no, I'm not joking; I've just noticed that I haven't had a real bf in like... Ever! o.O Most of the posters in my bedroom are of female popstars, with a few Michael Jackson posters and a tiny Eminem poster that you can hardly see among the hordes of Lady Gaga, P!nk, Annie Lennox, Katy Perry, Ke$ha and Madonna posters.
And I've been a huge tomboy for as long as I can remember. As a kid, I would rip Barbie's head off whenever my grandparents brought me one for my birthday. I've always loved violent video games where you blow people's heads off too! >:3 But... About 2 years ago and I actually started to get a bit girly, which shocked most of my family and even myself. o.O And still almost never wear make-up and my hair is always an untidy mess, but I find it fun painting my nails and wearing somewhat girly clothes... Although admittedly most of my clothes are pretty tomboyish, jeans, t-shirts, the works...
I've never had feelings for gals though, I just look up them as role models and, being a girl myself, I find I can relate to them and their music better than the dudes. But I do find most men pretty unattractive, I don't see anything smexy about a six-pack on a man at all... But I think muscular womenz are hot, like wtf? I've had a girl-crush on Lady Gaga for over 2 years now though... And should I find it wrong that I found Gaga smexy as a dude in her new video for You & I...? xD
So, do you think I may in fact be a lesbian...? xD I am not taking this too seriously by the way and I couldn't care less if I am gay or not, my mother wouldn't care either, but my dad may kill me...
I'm just a poor bi-curious 16 year old girl who finds her life confusing and I don't even know who the beep I am in this dark, lonely world! cries
And I've been a huge tomboy for as long as I can remember. As a kid, I would rip Barbie's head off whenever my grandparents brought me one for my birthday. I've always loved violent video games where you blow people's heads off too! >:3 But... About 2 years ago and I actually started to get a bit girly, which shocked most of my family and even myself. o.O And still almost never wear make-up and my hair is always an untidy mess, but I find it fun painting my nails and wearing somewhat girly clothes... Although admittedly most of my clothes are pretty tomboyish, jeans, t-shirts, the works...
I've never had feelings for gals though, I just look up them as role models and, being a girl myself, I find I can relate to them and their music better than the dudes. But I do find most men pretty unattractive, I don't see anything smexy about a six-pack on a man at all... But I think muscular womenz are hot, like wtf? I've had a girl-crush on Lady Gaga for over 2 years now though... And should I find it wrong that I found Gaga smexy as a dude in her new video for You & I...? xD
So, do you think I may in fact be a lesbian...? xD I am not taking this too seriously by the way and I couldn't care less if I am gay or not, my mother wouldn't care either, but my dad may kill me...
I'm just a poor bi-curious 16 year old girl who finds her life confusing and I don't even know who the beep I am in this dark, lonely world! cries
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first two paragraph I can relate to!!
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XD I think, seeing as you mentioned your age, that it's just a teenage thing. I used to hate dressing up, but now I'm getting the feeling of liking it. So no worries!! I highly doubt you're lesbian! Sorry if any of that sounded harsh.
It didn't sound harsh at all, lol. :P Thanks for teh advice. :3
I can relate with the ripping heads of barbie thing XD And the wearing tomboyish clothes.
You're not necessarily bi, you're just awesome.
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Thanks! :3
I don't mean to sound conceited or anything, but I have noticed that most of the tomboyish girls always seem to be the most interested. There's two girls that go to my school who are huge tomboys, both of them play guitars and mainly hang out with the guys and they have such interesting personalities. :3 Especially one of the two, she's amazingly humorous so naturally, we got on well. ;)
i dont think ur Bi, you may just not know who you are yet.
True, I wish I knew who I was in this unforgiving world. :c
If you haven't ever had a crush on a girl before then I'm not sure that you can call yourself lesbian, or even bisexual. Crushes on celebrities are one thing, but having a crush on someone you know in real life is another. You said that you're bicurious right now, so try things out(dating wise) with boys and girls and see what you like better.
And being a tomboy doesn't mean that you only like girls, I know plenty of tomboys who are straight. =)
Good luck. ♥
Thanks for the advice. ;)
Yeah, all the tomboys I've known are straight, in fact, the few lesbians that I have come across tend to be really girly, lol. o.O
That doesn't have to mean you're gay - I'm not gay or bi, but I've been a real tomboy when I was little - I had mosty guy friends, played football for most of my childhood...First time I wore makeup I was almoust fifteen! :D Till then I didn't care about clothes, make up,manicure etc,but then it started getting interesting and fun :) Now, I wear make up, wear dresses,heels,my best friends are three girls...My point is, I was confused as you are, I acted like you do.
Gay or not, you're stll u!;)
I can relate to that post almost 100% (except the playing football part, never really been in to sports). :)
Yeah, I definitely don't believe I would be any different if I was bi or not, but my dad would probably murder me, lmao. xD My mother has actually joked about me being a lesbian a couple of times. One example was when I was listening to P!nk and watching her videos all day and my mom came into the room and said '...Are you in love with her?' xD
Tbh, I am, but not sexually. ;)
hahah well she is kinda hot :DD
don't worry, it's normal for a teenage girl to look at famous girls and stars as her rolemodels, someone she would like to be, meet etc... And I'm sure your father wont kill you even if you are bi/les, he'll still love you :))
Agreed. :3
I would definetly like to be either P!nk or Lady Gaga, or at least like them, lol, so no doubt about that. ;)
I dunno, my dad hates gays... :c
It wouldn't matter to me if you were bi, or lez at all! That shouldn't change the way anyone thinks about you unless they're extremely shallow. Like JulyLovesYa said, gay or not, you are still you. No choices like that can change that in my mind. You're still my friend! :D
Also, just cuz you have a little crush on lady gaga and you're a tomboy doesn't mean you're gay. Try experimenting a little before you ultimately decide. ^_^
Thank you! :3
Umm, I guess I could go all Katy Perry and try kissing a girl, lol. xD I kissed a girl and Iiiiiked it! :P
You should just be who you are. And if you are a tomboy, that does not have to mean you are gay. I am tomboy myself I guess because I like to keep my hair short, wear guy's clothes a lot and never do anything girly. I think I'm straight but hell, even if I do turn out to be lesbian someday, that will be alright if that's who I really am.
You don't have to know all everything about yourself at 16. Just be yourself and I'm positive that person will be great. :)
Fellow tomboy! high five ;D
Tbh, I hardly know anything about myself, lol. :( I know I'm humorous and I enjoy poking fun at things/people in a light-hearted way, but other than that, I have no idea who I want to be or anything such as that. I still haven't decided what career I would like in the future, and I have thought hard about it, lol. :c
It's hormones, dear. Blame the hormones!
(This explains pretty much everyones' comments in two sentences. [See how awesome I am?] LOL.)
lol, it's kinda true. xD
I am gonna feel really dirty for saying this, but yes, I have dirty thoughts a lot of the time... Not gonna go into any detail. ;) Let's just say I wasn't horny at all until about last year, lol. :P
Ok, going to go take a shower now, see ya!
It's possible, but don't worry about it! If that's who you are, GOOD! :) It doesn't matter what gender you love, as long as you stay as crazy as you are to me :D
I'll always remain crazy, don't worry. :3 POWEH TO DA CRAZIES BABY!!!
POWEH! High fives you :D
I don't care if you are gay or straight. I will always be your friend. I don't like dressing up and acting like a girl either but i am not gay. All of my friends are gay. So why does it matter, WE LIVE IN AMERICA!! We have the freedown to be anything we want to be, gay, straight, bi: you name it. So just know that you will always have a friend in me.