Things You Should Know About Me

1. My parents are divorced.
I am heading into freshman year of high school, and my parents told me that they were getting a divorce just after Christmas of seventh grade. I had thought that my parents would always love each other, but they always used to fight, so in the end it was what I expected.


2. I almost attempted suicide. Almost.
I had everything planned out--how, what with, when, I even had a suicide note written. But then my dad got worried because I was being depressed, so he put me in counseling. In doing so, my dad ended up keeping me alive, when he and his ignorant, biitch of a girlfriend are the ones who put me in that position in the first place.


3. I have only ever had one pet and he died when I was only eight.
I used to have a cat named Angel. He had heart murmur; but even so, Angel was an amazing pet. He got out of the house a lot, but that's not why he died. He had a seizure while he was sleeping, and that is how he died. I was devastated when my parents told me he was dead and cried for weeks afterward.


4. I lose my temper easily.
I have gotten in fist fights before because the other person was intimadating me and harassing me. I've even broken someone's nose.


5. I am good at keeping secrets.
I have been told many things in my life that no one wanted to be shared, and I've never told anyone any of them. I'm even still keeping a secret for someone who has moved and that I haven't contacted scince.


6. I don't believe in love.
I have tried many times in the past to ask guys out, and all of my attempts have ended in that person avoiding me for the rest of the time I know them because they always end up moving. :'( I have been convinced that there is no such thing as love. I am also convinced that there never was and will never be a time when I'm loved by someone outside my family.


7. I feel as though I'm hated by everyone.
I have been being avoided lately--and by people whom I thought were my friends, too. It's depressing, but it's true.


8. I am very compationate and care about others, but I'd rather be alone than with others.
I work best alone, but I quickly grow lonely and wish for the company of others. Even so, I know that with company I easily become distracted and stop working after a while.


9. I can understand nature.
I hear the screams of trees as they're sliced down by saws, feel their pain, hear them as they think, What did I ever do to deserve this? I hear the words the wind whispers, says, screams and shreaks as it moves past my ears. I sense when the environment is upset, when it needs comfort. I do my best to help when I can, but I never feel as though I've done enough, even when I know there is nothing more I can do.


10. I've never had a boyfriend.
I don't know if it's me or if it's the boys, but I've never had a boyfriend or been asked out.