For all the bullies and victims out there
....just read it.
italicized words are thoughts, bolded words are the note.
Why do they do this to me? What did I ever do to them to make them hate me? Am I just some kind of sick entertainment to them?
Would it even matter if I was dead?
Ashley thought all of these things over and over as she cried herself to sleep the night. She'd been bullied and abused her whole life, either by her family, the bigger kids at school, or even her friends. Her arms bled slightly from cutting them so much, and tears traced lines down her face like thinning rivers.
Her eyes fluttered open. She had nothing left. No tears to cry, no love in her heart, and no will to live. She didn't care about what would happen after she was gone. No one would probably notice she was anyway.
Dark thoughts and pure misery clouded her vision and thoughts as she reached a shaking hand into her dresser and pulled out a gun and a note. Laying the note on the bed, she lifted the gun.
She felt the pressure of the barrel on her temple and smiled for the first time in years. Pulling her finger back on the trigger slowly she felt blissful, but all of a sudden, a flurry of images flew through her brain.
Her 5th birthday, when she's gotten a new doll and her mom's happy face watching her open it. Her boyfriend, Mark kissing her on the cheek after prom.
Her brother Brian's funeral and how she's felt after he went suicide.
BANG
In where last few seconds of life, Ashley fell to the floor looking at the pool of blood slowly forming around her head. As she slipped away silently, a single tear fell from her eye for the last time.
I'm sorry...
Gone.
Footsteps rushed up the stairs to Ashley's room. Her mother screamed, and cried onto her father's shoulder. Her 6 year old brother, Tod walked over to her limp form and hugged her.
"Why isn't Ashwee moving Mommy? Is she sleeping? Why is there blood all over the place?" Her father knelt down by Tod and hugged him, tears now rolling down his cheeks.
"Ashley won't be with us anymore, Toddy." he whispered.
"No!" Tod said, backing away. "She'll wake up, right Mommy?" But his mom just shook her head, unable to speak. Tod looked at them both in shock and sadness. Then he raced over the Ashley's body again and shook her.
"Wake up Ashwey! Come on! Get up!!" he screamed until his dad pulled him away. He was still whimpering when Ashley's mom called the police to report what happened. Then he spied the note on the bed.
The next day, Ashley's mom went to her school. Her eyes were red and puffy from all of the crying last night, and her voice shook. The principal called an assembly, and the whole student body attended as Ashley's mom stood in front of them.
"Today, I-I came to tell you that my daughter, Ashley has c-committed suicide." a hush went through the crowd as they realized how serious this assembly was.
"I don't know what happened. Or who is was that made her do this, but sh-she left us this note before she...k-killed herself..." the opened the now tear splotched note and began to read.
I'm sorry, but I just can't take it anymore. My life was meaningless anyway. Why else would people bully me? I'm going to a better place now. Tell Mark I truly loved him, and not to miss me when I'm gone. I'm sure he'll find a better girl than me soon.
And toddy, I'm just going to be asleep for a very long time. So don't miss me okay? I'll meet you up in heaven, pinky swear.
even if you didn't like me, I never hated any of you. I guess I was the problem, so now you guys should have easier lives.
Goodbye, to anyone who cares,
Love, Ashley
Her mother held the note to her heart, grasping the last piece that she had of her daughter for dear life. The whole school was in shocked silence. Then out of no where, one of the bullies started to cry. then another, and another. They realized that they had pushed a girl to her death, and now they were paying for it with their guilt. Ashley wouod never come back.
I wrote this to remind everyone that suicides happen all the time, and that once you give life up, you can't get it back. Don't think that you won't be missed. It's in comomoration of world suicide day. Please, remember that suicide isn't the answer. repost if you'd like to help. :'(
Would it even matter if I was dead?
Ashley thought all of these things over and over as she cried herself to sleep the night. She'd been bullied and abused her whole life, either by her family, the bigger kids at school, or even her friends. Her arms bled slightly from cutting them so much, and tears traced lines down her face like thinning rivers.
Her eyes fluttered open. She had nothing left. No tears to cry, no love in her heart, and no will to live. She didn't care about what would happen after she was gone. No one would probably notice she was anyway.
Dark thoughts and pure misery clouded her vision and thoughts as she reached a shaking hand into her dresser and pulled out a gun and a note. Laying the note on the bed, she lifted the gun.
She felt the pressure of the barrel on her temple and smiled for the first time in years. Pulling her finger back on the trigger slowly she felt blissful, but all of a sudden, a flurry of images flew through her brain.
Her 5th birthday, when she's gotten a new doll and her mom's happy face watching her open it. Her boyfriend, Mark kissing her on the cheek after prom.
Her brother Brian's funeral and how she's felt after he went suicide.
BANG
In where last few seconds of life, Ashley fell to the floor looking at the pool of blood slowly forming around her head. As she slipped away silently, a single tear fell from her eye for the last time.
I'm sorry...
Gone.
Footsteps rushed up the stairs to Ashley's room. Her mother screamed, and cried onto her father's shoulder. Her 6 year old brother, Tod walked over to her limp form and hugged her.
"Why isn't Ashwee moving Mommy? Is she sleeping? Why is there blood all over the place?" Her father knelt down by Tod and hugged him, tears now rolling down his cheeks.
"Ashley won't be with us anymore, Toddy." he whispered.
"No!" Tod said, backing away. "She'll wake up, right Mommy?" But his mom just shook her head, unable to speak. Tod looked at them both in shock and sadness. Then he raced over the Ashley's body again and shook her.
"Wake up Ashwey! Come on! Get up!!" he screamed until his dad pulled him away. He was still whimpering when Ashley's mom called the police to report what happened. Then he spied the note on the bed.
The next day, Ashley's mom went to her school. Her eyes were red and puffy from all of the crying last night, and her voice shook. The principal called an assembly, and the whole student body attended as Ashley's mom stood in front of them.
"Today, I-I came to tell you that my daughter, Ashley has c-committed suicide." a hush went through the crowd as they realized how serious this assembly was.
"I don't know what happened. Or who is was that made her do this, but sh-she left us this note before she...k-killed herself..." the opened the now tear splotched note and began to read.
I'm sorry, but I just can't take it anymore. My life was meaningless anyway. Why else would people bully me? I'm going to a better place now. Tell Mark I truly loved him, and not to miss me when I'm gone. I'm sure he'll find a better girl than me soon.
And toddy, I'm just going to be asleep for a very long time. So don't miss me okay? I'll meet you up in heaven, pinky swear.
even if you didn't like me, I never hated any of you. I guess I was the problem, so now you guys should have easier lives.
Goodbye, to anyone who cares,
Love, Ashley
Her mother held the note to her heart, grasping the last piece that she had of her daughter for dear life. The whole school was in shocked silence. Then out of no where, one of the bullies started to cry. then another, and another. They realized that they had pushed a girl to her death, and now they were paying for it with their guilt. Ashley wouod never come back.
I wrote this to remind everyone that suicides happen all the time, and that once you give life up, you can't get it back. Don't think that you won't be missed. It's in comomoration of world suicide day. Please, remember that suicide isn't the answer. repost if you'd like to help. :'(
27 Comments
wow. Suicide is no lauhin matter. this was great, it will teach EVERYONE a lesson, bullies, victems, and even epople who aren't bluied or are bullies at all. wonderfull (though insneil sad at the same time)
:'( I know this happens all the time and it makes me really upset. Great job writing this, by the way. It moved me.
bullies are just people who are making people suffer for there happyness. Its not right, its rather sick really.
Thank you for writing this, I agree it's much too big of a problem. Bullies need to get a girlfriend, find a hobby and stop killing people.
I hope you don't think when I clicked on this, that I'm a bully. I would never dream of being one. I'm ridiculed at school but I never thought of comiting suicide. Ever. I don't have many friends, but the ones that I do have and my family members, I could never do that.
So, you are amazing for writing this beautiful piece! I congratulate you.
A few years back i almost commited suicide, thinking that it wouldn't matter since no one in life seemed to care, but i'm now just happy that life has been given to me. I just hope that everyone out there that think of commiting suicide knows that, even if in their mind they won't be missed, people love them and will cry for months after their death.
This happened to my friend Grayson. We all loved her but she was the butt of a lot of people jokes because of the way she lived her life. We all thought she was strong enough to handle it. In the end she wasn't. I miss her every day
I hate that people push other human beings to the brink of taking there own lives as a means of escaping the seemingly endless torment suicide is a subject the hits home with me. Tears still come to my eyes whenever I think about just the word.
I am literally tearing up right now. I don't know if it's about this story, or that my smartphone screen is way to bright at 10:50--probably both. It hurts me. I knew this person(not personally, like hearing of him,) and one of my friends at my after-school program told me that his brothers friend, A Sophmore(or freshman, I forget.), committed suicide. He texted everyone on his contact list a single, "Goodbye." and was gone. :'( this is a serious matter. The #1 cause of death in India is suicide
. College students getting over pressured to hit it big and get out of the credit and level thy live in. This needs to stop. Now. Because even though a new person is born each day, that person may fill the population lost, but never replace the person who is now gone.
I think its just sad that alot of teens reult to suicide. Bullying and abuse needs to stop. I was in health the other day reading the book nad it had charts and Suicide was the 2nd most popular cause of teen death. Itear up everytime I think of someone restulting to this because I know I have friends that care about me and that would stop me, but what makes me cry, is that some teens dont have that kind of support...
bullying isn't right...suicide is also not right...i hate bullies...they can make a person miserable...my brother used to get bullied but after he stood up against the bullies, they didn't dare to mess with him again...