I'm afraid (imperfection)

Chapter 1

A sucky song

You cry and scream
In anger in sadness
You laugh through it all, putting on a brave face
Inside you're screaming
Outside you're laughing
INside you're in tears
Outside you're smiling

You feel alone, you cry at night
Teaers of sadness and anger
Leaking from your eyes
You pick up a knife day after day
You press it to your skin and pray it all goes away

The crimson blood flowing from the wound, pooling in your palm
A smile on your lips, the redened knife in your left hand
You do it again, the cicle repeating

But what about me?
I'm awake at night so you can sleep
I'm afraid that you'll just go and leave me
I'm afraid of myself of all people
But mostly I'm afraid of loosing you
My one, one and only friend
My sister
My twin

I lie awake and cry the tears you're afraid to shed
You've been strong
You've been weak
You've stayed strong through the hardest times
Depression only means you've been strong for far too long you say
It's true...Keep fighting my friend
My one and only twin

I'm afraid of being alone
Afraid of myself
My world is crashing down around me and there isn't much I can do about it
My eyesight is going foggy
Impending doom is all I see

A psychic once said that we would all die...
One would be suicide after another death
The next an accident caused by themselves
I....A deep cut, and bleeding out
I imagine my death
I'm terrified

I'm awake at night so you can sleep
I'm afraid that you'll just go and leave me
I'm afraid of myself of all people
But mostly I'm afraid of loosing you
My one, one and only friend
My sister
My twin

I'm afraid to die
I'm afraid you'd die
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid of failure
Afraid of imperfection

One wrong word and it all comes crashing down
I see my death before my eyes
I sense it's the end
I'm afraid

You hide your scars from me under your sleeves
A smile on your lips
A terrified look in your eyes
I swore to protect you from the pain you felt
I did my best but it didn't work
I try to help but again I fail

All I know is failure
All I know is imperfection
All I know is pain I've done nothing to help
Pain I've done everything to make worse

I used to be selfish
I used to not care for others
You changed me
You made me think
You made me not care about myself

I've helped you through the toughest times
You've helped me realise how I should feel

I'm awake at night so you can sleep
I'm afraid that you'll just go and leave me
I'm afraid of myself of all people
But mostly I'm afraid of loosing you
My one, one and only friend
My sister
My twin

I'm afraid of losing you
Afraid of death
Afraid of loneliness
Afraid of failure

My friend
My sister
My one and only twin
Please don't leave me here
Don't let me fall
Don't let me die
Please stay
Don't go
Don't hide from my imperfection

I'm afraid of death
Afraid of failure
Afraid of imperfection
I'm afraid to open up
The only one to realise how I was
The only one to try to help
I cannot thank you enough

Don't leave me here
I love you my sister
Please, I'm afraid
Don't go

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Like a flame flickering in the wind, CA, US

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