Empty Inside

That unmistakable feeling.
Every night as I gaze at the ceiling.
The darkness that surrounds me.
It calls out to me, telling me to be free.

The hollowness that leaves me shaking.
And the pain I feel threw out my body,
It makes me cold and I'm quaking.
The fear consumes me,
The lies that bind me.
A feeling inside me.

It hurts, of course it does.
The lonely, emptiness of it all.
But I would never let someone get close enough.
Close enough to heal and mend,
The shattered life I live.
Because then their close enough to bend,
And break everything I have.

Sometimes I want to be in the arms of another.
But why should I? should I even bother?
Because despite how much it hurt.
The lonely and hollow feeling I carry.
The feeling of being betrayed, it's lower than dirt.
Because you were the one to trust the other.
And it was you who thought they would be there forever.

That's why I feel this pain.
And my heart is weighed down by these chains.
I have nothing to lose or gain.
Slowly I'm losing my mind, going insane.
A baby left out in the pouring rain.
And these injuries I'm left to sustain.



Have you ever felt as though,
You were completely alone in the world?
Betrayed by someone you love,
And shown no mercy from anyone.
Have you felt the pain,
Loneliness and hollowness,
That come with being alone for so long.
To forget how to act with an actual person,
And not have walls built up to protect yourself?
I cannot say when I last trusted someone,
nor can I say when I was last completely honest.
But have you ever felt as though your heart was ripped out,
Stomped on and crushed right in front of your eyes,
Then throw in the road, only to get ran over.

I am Hollow Inside.
I am Lonely Inside.
I am Angry Inside.
I am Empty Inside.