My Troubles and Thoughts..............
This is for me to get out my thoughts and troubles. Read if you want, don't read if you don't want to, I don't care. This is for my self to get out. Feel free to message me to give me some advice...
Intro
Pain, loss, sadness. A friend lost, a world falling apart. How do I cope? I think the answer is death...
I was happy. I was waiting out at the cold bus stop. Nothing could get me down. The bus pulled up. I scanned my buss pass and found a seat behind some of my friends, Lindsey and Sally.
"Hey!" I said.
"Hey Kate!" they said in unison. We all giggled. We got into a big conversation about our grades.
"Yeah, I happen to have C's in English, Social Studies, and Science. I also have a D+ in Algebra" I groaned.
"Ah, that sucks" said Lindsey. I nodded. We were all in NJHS, National Juniors Honor Society, and we had to have an AB average to stay in it. I just happened to be treasurer. We continued to chat as the bus pulled up to the school.
"I'll see you guys later!" I chimed as I waked to the school library. Nothing could ruin my good mood. I got to the library and set my stuff down. I heard talking from the hall.
"Mommie!" I said and hugged another one of my good friends.
"Daughter!" She yelled back. This was my friend, Carrie. We had this thing at school where your friends were your "family". So Carrie happens to be my "mom". I heard some more talking and saw two other friends, Xara and Bailey. I then saw my semi-close friend, Cayleen. We had been fighting for the past couple of months. She set down her stuff and pulled out two items. Ones i haven't seen in weeks. A notebook, that we had a story we were co-writing in and a book, that I had lent her.
"We're through. I hope these were worth the end of our friendship" she said handing me my stuff and smiled. It hurt. Tears welled up in my eyes, and i set my stuff down. I grabbed my Yoda, Xara, and told her what happend.
"I'm so sorry!" she said and hugged me. I cried in her arms. As the day went on, I felt better, but that evil smile is still imprinted into my brain. I told my other close friends that I was thinking of suicide. They kept me close.
I'm still alive, but death seems better. I still wonder how my ex-friend would react if I killed myself. I guess I'll find out now. Good bye cruel, heartless world. It seems that I'm the one who got away...
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Authors Note:
I just want to let everyone know that i'm not thinking of suicide. I just thought that it went with the story. I'm looking for good advice. If you have any, message me instead of commenting for this one, please?
From,
Really Sad and Depressed
Pain, loss, sadness. A friend lost, a world falling apart. How do I cope? I think the answer is death...
I was happy. I was waiting out at the cold bus stop. Nothing could get me down. The bus pulled up. I scanned my buss pass and found a seat behind some of my friends, Lindsey and Sally.
"Hey!" I said.
"Hey Kate!" they said in unison. We all giggled. We got into a big conversation about our grades.
"Yeah, I happen to have C's in English, Social Studies, and Science. I also have a D+ in Algebra" I groaned.
"Ah, that sucks" said Lindsey. I nodded. We were all in NJHS, National Juniors Honor Society, and we had to have an AB average to stay in it. I just happened to be treasurer. We continued to chat as the bus pulled up to the school.
"I'll see you guys later!" I chimed as I waked to the school library. Nothing could ruin my good mood. I got to the library and set my stuff down. I heard talking from the hall.
"Mommie!" I said and hugged another one of my good friends.
"Daughter!" She yelled back. This was my friend, Carrie. We had this thing at school where your friends were your "family". So Carrie happens to be my "mom". I heard some more talking and saw two other friends, Xara and Bailey. I then saw my semi-close friend, Cayleen. We had been fighting for the past couple of months. She set down her stuff and pulled out two items. Ones i haven't seen in weeks. A notebook, that we had a story we were co-writing in and a book, that I had lent her.
"We're through. I hope these were worth the end of our friendship" she said handing me my stuff and smiled. It hurt. Tears welled up in my eyes, and i set my stuff down. I grabbed my Yoda, Xara, and told her what happend.
"I'm so sorry!" she said and hugged me. I cried in her arms. As the day went on, I felt better, but that evil smile is still imprinted into my brain. I told my other close friends that I was thinking of suicide. They kept me close.
I'm still alive, but death seems better. I still wonder how my ex-friend would react if I killed myself. I guess I'll find out now. Good bye cruel, heartless world. It seems that I'm the one who got away...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Authors Note:
I just want to let everyone know that i'm not thinking of suicide. I just thought that it went with the story. I'm looking for good advice. If you have any, message me instead of commenting for this one, please?
From,
Really Sad and Depressed
7 Comments
i don't entirley get it...
my ex-friend and i aren't friends anymore and it hurt....... i'm not thinking of suicide...... but it hurt alot..... if you want to give advice, message me please....
hmmmm, this happened to me, but my best advice, is to take it easy, and just try to do things with your other friends, listen to happy music, or music in a different language, and don't beat yourself up about it. I mean this happens to all of us sometime, and you always have me, and your other friends here, so there's nothing to worry about :)
thanks, that makes me feel a lot better!
I could not have Said that better! I was going to pretty much the same thing but a lot longer ( I'm glad I read ur post first!) yeah just take it easy. The whole different language songs I like this band it's called rbd and I think that helped the most!
Whatever you do, do NOT lock yourself in your room with chocolate bars and death metal CDS. It usually doesn't work with me. What really works is going outside and punching your shed to pieces, then gluing it back together with a pritt stick.
^.^ Lmafo! thanks!