the incredibly stupid story of my life and how i became my superhero (kinda)

I know god created heaven and earth.But the way this story starts is at ****** (because this is online i choose not to say many details) .My mom left me when i was young because the doctor thought i was sure to die.I dont know why but of course when i grow up i would think its my fault.Am i to blame? im not sure but i grew up with an abusive brother (not really abusive but mentally a bit) so of course im that lame kid in high school sittin reading depressive books like bambi. (not really....) until one day i was sittin readin the very intresting last chapter of breaking dawn when i met this....miracle