My Little Feeling
Alright it's nothing about you it's about my feelings or how I do feel.
So read, and maybe comment and help me out.
Alright my feelings...
Ok right now I'm not feeling like a wonderdful cupcake. I'm not seriously. I feel like shiiit. Umm is it normal to feel this way? Well I hope. I feel horrible. I recently lost two of my friends in a car wreck on Friday the 13th on a snow covered road. School was cancelled that day and the wreck was around 1 so if we would've had school, my friends would still be here. I cried yeah and I miss them but I don't think that has to do with my feeling of feeling horrible.
Can I do something about? I think I have emotional problems. I've been crying of little stupid things, like my mom telling me that she doesn't want to talk to me right this second. I feel like screaming at her "I'm depressed mom can't you listen?!" but I don't and I probably won't. I cry myself to sleep sometimes, thinking of why life is horrible, but I can never find the answer. I think the world is horrible because of some of the bad people that do bad things to it.
I waste your time don't I? I know I do.
Now here's my question. Change? How do I make myself change? I'm not changing for someone I like, I'm changing cause I'm sick of myself acting the way I do.
How many of you think I'm nice?
All of you cause I don't talk to you and you don't talk to me and we just label people as nice. Truth be told I'm a b word a big one. I'm mean to my mom. Alot. Everyday. I want to be nice to her but I can't cause I take my anger/depression out on her. Now please don't comment and be mean, I'm telling you the truth.Oh and you know what else is a big lie my name. My real name is Icee'. Not Maria. Oh and Icee' is probably familiar to you from my Always account I made that account so I could talk to other people, and meet new people. Alright I'm done.
Bye,
Icee/Maria
Ok right now I'm not feeling like a wonderdful cupcake. I'm not seriously. I feel like shiiit. Umm is it normal to feel this way? Well I hope. I feel horrible. I recently lost two of my friends in a car wreck on Friday the 13th on a snow covered road. School was cancelled that day and the wreck was around 1 so if we would've had school, my friends would still be here. I cried yeah and I miss them but I don't think that has to do with my feeling of feeling horrible.
Can I do something about? I think I have emotional problems. I've been crying of little stupid things, like my mom telling me that she doesn't want to talk to me right this second. I feel like screaming at her "I'm depressed mom can't you listen?!" but I don't and I probably won't. I cry myself to sleep sometimes, thinking of why life is horrible, but I can never find the answer. I think the world is horrible because of some of the bad people that do bad things to it.
I waste your time don't I? I know I do.
Now here's my question. Change? How do I make myself change? I'm not changing for someone I like, I'm changing cause I'm sick of myself acting the way I do.
How many of you think I'm nice?
All of you cause I don't talk to you and you don't talk to me and we just label people as nice. Truth be told I'm a b word a big one. I'm mean to my mom. Alot. Everyday. I want to be nice to her but I can't cause I take my anger/depression out on her. Now please don't comment and be mean, I'm telling you the truth.Oh and you know what else is a big lie my name. My real name is Icee'. Not Maria. Oh and Icee' is probably familiar to you from my Always account I made that account so I could talk to other people, and meet new people. Alright I'm done.
Bye,
Icee/Maria
9 Comments
Icee', I was in your shoes a few months ago. That's the bloody fact.
My grandpa died, I did horrible things to everyone around me- even a bit of self-mutilation. Which does NOT help by the way.
I don't know where you stand with God or anything, but what I did was just surrender myself to God and let Him fix me. It took about 4 months, but now I'm a different person. I can smile at life again. Another thing that helps me is music.
Listen, if you need to talk, please message me. I want to help.
Actually I don't know what to say. I'm gonna take your advice and follow it. Thank you!
=) I'm glad I could be of help- you're welcome!
Hey, listen. Don't label yourself worthless just yet. Life is gorgeous, and I agree with NyxLeonaCor. I'm not religious, but sometimes you need to heal slowly, and music helps. You're not wasting anyone's time. Take care.
O no my friend I am sorry to hear about your loss. I really do hope you get better.
In time it will. perhaps writing down how you feel and then hand it to your mom. Maybe then she can understand you without you having to say it. It might work. But Its only a suggestion you dont have to do anything you dont want. I am here and You are never a waste of time, in my case anyway. Feel better my friend and I do hope all gets better.=)
I relise what you feel like that once not to long ago , what made me feel better is relising that life is a long road and either way you go there is going to be those hills that take awhile to get over...I was what you were like for awhile (like atleast 5 months or more) and I bet it feels like your life is colasping ,but it is not this is just enother hill to go over try thinking what your friends would want you to do, music does help, and so does reading or writing ...i'm only 10 + 3 you have
..sorry not that many words ..you have friends here and everywhere...just smile 'u'
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Sorry I only read this now. I hope things are better now, but if they're not, I'm here for you if you ever need to talk about it. Sometimes life gets really hard, but it will get better. Give yourself time. And about being mean to your mum, I think everyone has been mean to their mum at some point in their life. I used to be horrible towards my mum, even made her cry once or twice, but that's all in the past now and we're very close. Try to surround yourself with things you like, e.g. music.
And maybe the most important thing, try to talk about it with someone. It's never good to bottle everything up inside you. You'll feel better once you've let it all out.