I Need You, Where Are You?

I close my eyes and i hear them whisper,
I hear the cruel laughs,
And angry voices.
They taunt me,
Back and forth,
Back and forth.
They taunt me.
"You're fat."
"You're stupid."
"No one cares."
"You not gonna make it,"
"You should just kill yourself."
"Why don't you just kill yourself?!"
"NO ONE LOVES YOU!"
And at first it's overwhelming,
It all becomes too much.
The pain hurts too much.
The cutts are now deeper.
And the blood flows more heavy.
But then i hear it,
The one voice that is so different then the others.
The one voice that i love,
The one voice that was drowned by all the other evil ones.
But as i listen,
It becomes louder and louder.
Until it is all i hear.
It says to me,
"You are loved,
If no one else loves you
I do.
If you think God has turned His back on you,
He hasn't.
You just have to look beyond all the pain,
And the ugly,
To find the happy,
And the beautiful.
You have to look beyond all the cruel,
To find me,
The guy God sent to you,
To heal your heart and you're wounds.
Just look beyond the cruel,
and find the guy that loves you."
But i looked and i looked.
And you were no where to be found.
I looked and i looked,
Til a gave up and let it all fall down.
I looked and i looked,
And all i could see was the lies spoken to me.
I looked and i looked,
But my eyes were blinded to the truth.
Where are you?
Where could you be?
I follow your voice,
And i hear your soft footsteps.
But you are no where to be seen.
I looked and i looked,
But saw nothing but blood.
I looked and i looked,
But i saw nothing but broken down faith.
I looked and i looked,
But sadly i never saw your beautiful face.