fail, fail, failfailfail..

well, i landed myself in the hospital today because i'm an ass.
i was driving and i was in the middle of i guess what you can call a freak out.. thats what i get when i remember certain things. well, while i was beating myself up about that (not too literally), I pulled myself together enough to look up at the giant pine tree i was about to wrap my car around.
broken leg, fractured arm, two deep cuts (one on my head, one on my leg), a ticket for speeding, driving without a licence, and not having a seatbelt on.
i just got home a while ago, and i gotta go back in tomorrowto get a cast or sling or whatever for my arm...
eh well no sleep tonight i guess..
im such a f*ing idiot! ugh..the doc asked me all kinds of mental questions and crap too cuz he saw some stupid scars..though some didnt really scar yet.
i just hate hospitals. they're a waste of time and money, and personally, i'd rather wake up still in my smushed car bleeding and unable to walk rather than waking up in a fing ambulance with a bunch of prissy annoying guys near me.
I'd rather die in that car. but nope. my injuries werent near bad enough to kill me, they were only bad enough to hurt like heIl, stick me in the hospital all day.
all i know is that im stupid for what i did, and now im paying for it.

i could go on and on about this.. about my stupidity, and how i f*ed everything up...

and well, this'll affect my plans i suppose.