Just an innocent guy...
I was just an innocent guy. I didnt do anything wrong so why am i not coping with all this shiit for?
This is what you guys really need to know.
Bye guys.
Love Justice
My names Justice as some of you already know. My mum died I was 4 so I live with my dad, my dad and my step mum (Chloe) have been together for about 4 years soon, my dad and his wife have no time for his 4 kids not including me, Jeric (9), Tara (5), Blake and Elijah (2) and one more on the way.
My mum died of cancer when I was four so I have never really had a bond with her. When my mum died I was living with her with Jeric then we both had to move in with my dad and Chloe so Jeric and I are brothers but Tara, Blake and Elijah are step brothers and sister.
My dad has bashed me 5 or 6 times this year and Chloe has abused me and raaped me twice. But I can’t go to the police because they will do it even more.
I have depression really bad I have tried to kill myself plenty of times, been in hospital about 9 times in 2 months, over over dosing and getting stitches, right now I have about 12 stitches in my wrist from cutting myself.
I have border line personality which is my personality changes in a click.
I have anxiety but not that bad as about 2 years ago.
I also have AD/HD. This is also why I have border line personality.
I don’t go to school, I dropped out in year 10 because of social problems and now I go to tafe, studying my year 12 hsc but that is even harder than I thought, I don’t have a job cause it’s too difficult for me to get a job also because of all my disabilities it is best for me not to have a job I guess.
My life at school was never perfect I was picked on for not being that smart kid, that emo guy, that guy that never comes to school, that guy who thinks his so cool, the one who looks so depressed and things like that, but now I regret it all because I look like the guy that dropped out of school because I had all these things wrong with me.
I not long got kicked out of my dad’s house because I took my younger brothers Elijah and Blake for a walk and Elijah was being naughty and I pulled his hood and chocked him by accident though. So now I have no where really to go I am staying with my grandma for now but she is going to Queensland on the 4th of July so after that I don’t know where to go. So I guess the only way to get out of life is to kill myself I guess. Like I have always want to kill myself so this is the way out of life so bye guys….
Love Justice
My mum died of cancer when I was four so I have never really had a bond with her. When my mum died I was living with her with Jeric then we both had to move in with my dad and Chloe so Jeric and I are brothers but Tara, Blake and Elijah are step brothers and sister.
My dad has bashed me 5 or 6 times this year and Chloe has abused me and raaped me twice. But I can’t go to the police because they will do it even more.
I have depression really bad I have tried to kill myself plenty of times, been in hospital about 9 times in 2 months, over over dosing and getting stitches, right now I have about 12 stitches in my wrist from cutting myself.
I have border line personality which is my personality changes in a click.
I have anxiety but not that bad as about 2 years ago.
I also have AD/HD. This is also why I have border line personality.
I don’t go to school, I dropped out in year 10 because of social problems and now I go to tafe, studying my year 12 hsc but that is even harder than I thought, I don’t have a job cause it’s too difficult for me to get a job also because of all my disabilities it is best for me not to have a job I guess.
My life at school was never perfect I was picked on for not being that smart kid, that emo guy, that guy that never comes to school, that guy who thinks his so cool, the one who looks so depressed and things like that, but now I regret it all because I look like the guy that dropped out of school because I had all these things wrong with me.
I not long got kicked out of my dad’s house because I took my younger brothers Elijah and Blake for a walk and Elijah was being naughty and I pulled his hood and chocked him by accident though. So now I have no where really to go I am staying with my grandma for now but she is going to Queensland on the 4th of July so after that I don’t know where to go. So I guess the only way to get out of life is to kill myself I guess. Like I have always want to kill myself so this is the way out of life so bye guys….
Love Justice
37 Comments
No don't kill yourself .
I will...
why? dont do it.
look at what i just wrote thats why!
well........... isn't there any other option besides killing yourself?
Like what? Theres nothing.
I don't know, but i'm not going to tell you what to do but i'm just saying think about it because once you do it there is no coming back.
I know that...
No,don't even try to kill yourself again.
yeah... Tad late there.
now me sad :(
Im sorry :'[
don't ever try anything like that again!!
Ill try not to.
please don't puppy dog face
Ill try i promise
ok,thanks
Come on!!! You really wanna kill yourself?!Don't, please. I know things are horrible 4 u right now, but it will turn out to be better in the future. I swear on my sister's grave. Look, i've been through one of the worst, most screwed up $!t f%k, i had a shiity childhood, especially my teens, but i made it through. Because i hung in there. So please, Justin. Hang in there. Don't give up. That would just be devastating.
Thanks but i just cant cope with it all and now reading what i wrote now sounds like i am a attention seeking rat but i wrote it cause thats what i was feeling at the time and i did i did try killing myself and ended up in hospital but yeah. Well i hope things get better.
I don't really know you, but i am crying, i don't want you to give up. It literally kills me to know what you're going through. What i am saying probably doesn't appeal to you, because of distance aand just meeting me on the internet. But i really am feeling what i am saying. Everybody has a rough time in their lives. Yours is extreme, but you WILL breakthrough sometime. IK it sounds cheesy, but it will happen. We just don't know when.
Oh. I meant justice, not justin. Sry!
Ok life is hard i know tht .I dont even know my bros or parents .And i hav been iin foster care since i was one.I know tht ok i admitt i have been to the hospitale alot for cutting myself and i almost killed myself but now i know dont kill myself because its bad.Your ok.or youe going to be ok.you have friends who love you and throw there self in front of a train for u.Lif is hard but u will be ok.: )an talk to m i am here.
Thank you alot :]
any time ok.yourwelcome.remember get threw the bad parts of life to get to the good parts.
Every one says thts the esay way out aand stuff it is and a lot of ppl do it but plz don't. I know ur life isn't great but I'm hear to talk to if u want I have amost the same thing going on too. We don't know each other and stuff but I care if u live or die bc tht means I lose a friend I know it shoulds selfish but I'm not teying to be we are all here for u. I hope things get better :3
Thanks.