teenage dreams:crushed

first day of 7th grade. tons of new people, teachers. it seemed like it would be awesome. but then i feasted my eyes onto the most georgous person i ever saw. he had sandy blonde hair, blue-green eyes, was 5'8, and had the sexiest face ever!!!!! his name was luke, and he was real popular and i was in love. i crushed on him forever, i got butterflies if i looked him in the eye. i culdnt say "hi" to him without passing out, and i felt weak if he brushed passed me in the hallway. all my friends new about it, but kept it secret. but then i made a big mistake while IM chatting a chick from school named bailey. i told her i "had crush on somone" and she asked who. i decided if i tell her and she told him it would be better he knew then never find out so i told. she told him the next day, but he looked at me and laughed, but then he said "i just dont really know her" but why couldnt he get to know me? was it becuz he was soo popular or becuz he didnt care enough to tlk to me without it being a dare or joke. i couldt get myself to stop likinhimmup untill 8th grade, rumors got spread bout me having pics of him on my wall, pretending to dance with him and others. so i finally went up to a person who asked me bout him and said "you know what, i may like him i may not but it really doesnt matter cuz im not bothered by it no more and wont be becuz i know hes started all thse rumors and i just hate him ok" and the rumors stopped. but i still like him hes funny, cute, smart, a football player, basketball player, and baseball player. hes also really funny i like humorous guys. so is he worth my admireation?