My view of the world

Sometimes I think I dont see the same things everyone sees through their eyes... Or my voice. Does it really sound how I think it sounds? I dont really know how to describe myself so yeah... I seem to have an opinion about everything or everyone. Like bullies. I think that the only reson why they bully is because they dont ever want anyone to mess with them or they want to feel better about themselves. But who knows? Each person is different.
Before I forget; I dont really know what I believe when it comes to religion (Im supposed to be catholic), but Ive been hearing stuff about noises from heaven and hell... If you dont know about this subject, here it goes: there has been some type of humming coming from the sky that some people claim to be angels playing trumpets. And hell? Im sorry but I dont really know about that one. People seem to believe more about the hell one than heaven. My teacher had said that the humming is made because of gravity or energy. Somewhere along those lines. What I think? Im sorry but I dont want to know these things! I want to live my life without having to worry that the world would end out of nowhere and I wont be able to see the people I love! I just hated judgement day! I hated when people said and believed the world would end! All those people who committed sucide! :(
I dont want to change anyones' belief so please dont get offended.
Honestly, no one knows where we go when we die right? What I think is that we dont go anywhere. What I mean is I dont think we go to heaven or hell. I think there is nothing but blackness. I dont know if you guys understand what Im trying to say though. Abortion? I think its wrong because how can you abort a child? That child wasnt asked to be conceived in the first place. But at the same time, what if it was your rapists' baby? Its tough to have a opinion considering these reasons. What do you guys think?