My lurking shadow

I'm not depressed.
I'm not emo.
But there is something.
Something near.
I can feel it chasing me,
Waiting for me to break.
Once I trip,
It will eat me
I felt it when my Grandma died
During surgery
On that hot summer day
I felt it when my dog was diagnosed with cancer
And when he died last month
I feel it while I watch my mom,
Suffer from a serious concussion.
She may never work again.
I feel it when I see how my dad looks
Watching her in pain.
I feel it when I'm ignored
Or left to my pain
But I hide it
I keep it in the dark
Because shadows only come out, when there's light
I laugh, I joke, I am happy
But when I'm left alone
My shadows return
If I told anyone what i felt
They wouldn't believe me
I always seem happy.
I'm not depressed.
I'm not emo.
but there is something
Something near.
I can't feel it chasing me
Waiting for me to break
When I trip
It will eat me
My shadow's almost here