I Can Love You More Than This
A Niall James Horan love story!
Taylor Gray is a 18 year old girl, attending University in London England, studying to me an author. She is 5'3, shoulder length brown hair, straight across bangs, blue eyes, is outgoing, carefree, likes giraffes, scared of height, is very awkward. Not much else to say, so enjoy!
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before you leave me today
'Yes, actually you did. What do you want?' I said harshly. Not all caring.
'Can I come in?' he asked.
'No you can't. What do you want?' I repeated, edging him on.
'Ok, I came here to apologize. For kissing you at the club to everything in between to here, right now' Harry said, looking into my eyes. I sighed and opened my door to let him in. We walked over to my couch and sat down.
'I didn't mean to kiss you. I didn't mean anything in between ok. I just want to be your friend. That's all I wanted but I was drunk and we were dancing and it happened. It didn't mean anything' Harry continued. I was more than happy with this because I didn't want Harry to be in the middle of everything.
'Harry, I know it didn't mean anything and I forgive you. I'd love to be your friend, so as a friend, do you mind leaving so I can sleep?' I asked, laughing silently.
'Oh yeah, of course love' Harry said, smiling and standing up. I got up after him walked him to the door, giving him a hug, we said our goodbyes and I closed the door, happy to get back into bed where I feel asleep almost instantly.
Everything was a blur from the moment I pulled Taylor from Parker to the moment she got in the car with him. Now Beth and I were at my flat, watching some stupid film. She's snuggled up on my lap and I honestly wish she wasn't. All I could think about was Taylor. She looked really good tonight, even though she was angry with me, it just made me like her even more. She was absolutely furious about what I did, and maybe that means she wouldn't want to be my friend anymore. What if her and Parker starting being in a relationship, what then? God, this film is awful why am I watching this? It wouldn't be as bad if Taylor were here... OK Niall that's it! You did this to yourself, you chose Beth, you ruined Taylor's date. You need to stop feeling sorry for your actions.
'Niall is it ok if I sleep here with you tonight?' Beth asked, drawing me out of my thoughts.
'Uh, yeah that's fine babe' I replied smiling. She brought her head up from my lap, smiled and kissed me. She then got up and went into the bathroom. I heard the shower start up and I turnt off the shitty film. I got up from the couch and went to the bedroom. I quickly changed into some sweat pants and went to my bed. I didn't realize how tired I was until I closed my eyes.
I woke with a start, and sat up instantly. I looked around the room and saw that Beth was still asleep beside me. I carefully slide out of the bed and walked into the bathroom. Jumping in the shower, I hoped I wasn't making too much noise because I didn't want Beth to be woken. Jumping out of the shower, I quickly got dressed and left a note for Beth saying I was rehearsing, which was a lie, but she wouldn't know. I called a cabby and waited inside my flat. Once it arrived I hurried out of the door and jumped in. I told him the adressed and sat back waiting to arrive. Once I did arrive, I felt more nervous then I have ever felt before. Go for it Niall, you've got nothing to lose. Walking up the door I took a deep breathe and knocked on the door. When she opened that door, she looked beautiful and I could tell she was still mad at me as she slammed the door right in my face.
'Taylor open the door please!?' I begged. I just wanted to talk. She wasn't answering but I knew she was behind the door, listening.
'Look I was an idiot ok?! I shouldn't had done what I did, but I did and it was a stupid decision on my part. I had no right to interrupt, your uh, date with that lad Parker, and I most certainly should not have made you sit through a dinner with Beth because I know how much you dislike her. But I just came here to say sorry, and that I'll stop being such an ass and I'll push aside my feelings for you because like you said, we barely know each other. So I would absolutely love to continue as friends and learn more about you, but if you're still upset because of last night, I understand' I explained, taking a well needed breathe. I stood there waiting for what seemed like ages and she still left the door closed. Just as I was about to leave, I heard the door open and Taylor stepped outside and looked at me. As I looked back at her, I felt a sudden smack hit my cheek. I looked at Taylor with a ' what the hell?! ' look before she spoke.
'You have got to stop being such an asshole Niall! You can't keep doing this! You can't keep saying how much you like me and want to be with me, and kiss me and then rub in my face that you're dating Bethany. I get it ok, you have feelings for me, and they shouldn't be that strong considering we barely know each other. I, however, am aloud to go on dates with other boys, and you have no right to intrude on them. Maybe you and I just need to be separated for a little while so you can figure out what you want' Taylor said, a little hint of anger in her voice.
'No no no, we don't need to stop being friends for a while. I'll stop being an idiot. Just please, please, please let us continue as friends and I'll stop bringing Beth around you, and I'll never talk about her, I just don't want to lose you, as a friend' I said hoping for the best. She sighed and looked at the ground for a few seconds. She then brought her head back up and looked into my eyes and gave a little smile that made me have a stupid grin on my face.
'Fine Niall, but if you screw one more time..' she said shaking her head and coming to hug me. I opened my arms and let her embrace me. She threw her arms around my neck, bringing the ends of her fingers tips into my hair and I wrapped my arms around her waist, nuzzling my head into her neck. I couldn't help the smile that was on my face and realized that I never felt this happy when I hugged Beth. We stayed like that for a few more seconds before she started to pull away. She pulled away only a little to look into my eyes and I looked back. It felt like her bright blue beautiful eyes were looking into my soul and I had to fight the urge to smash my lips on hers. Suddenly looking down, she began blushing and pulled away completely.
'Look Niall, I've got to go to work, but maybe we can get together tonight or something?' she asked and I smiled back at her.
'Yeah that'd be great. I'll see you later then' I answered backing up. We said our goodbyes and I started to walk back to my flat. It was a beautiful day for a walk anyways. I couldn't help but ponder that Taylor was going to kiss me when she pulled away from our embrace but didn't because of what she said before. I had to figure out what I wanted more, Beth or Taylor. If I chose Beth, I'd only have Taylor as a friend and who knows, she'd probably start dating Parker. But if I chose Taylor, I'd have her, and nothing else would matter because even though we barely knew each other she made me feel incredible. Just seeing her smile, her laugh, hear her voice, feel her lips on mine, her hands around my neck, fingers in my hair made me feel like no one has ever before. If love at first sight, I was experiencing it big time. Arriving back at my flat, I completely forgot that Beth was here. Walking in, I searched for her but saw she had left. Good, I wouldn't have to explain where I was. Heading to the kitchen to fix some lunch there was a knock on the door.
'Come in!' I yelled, clearly to busy to walk and open the door myself. 'In the kitchen mate!' I turnt around to see who it was and saw it was Harry. What did he want?
'What do you want Harry?' I asked, not too pleased.
'I just came here to tell you I apologized to Taylor for everything, including the kiss and we both agreed that it meant nothing. I never wanted you to be angry with me, especially over a girl and I hope you're considering forgiving me' Harry explained. I was still a little angry with him, but he was one of my best mates.
'Yeah it's alright mate, I shouldn't have gotten so upset over it. We're not together anyways' I said turning to him and taking a bite of my sandwich.
'Well, that's the other thing I wanted to talk to you about..' he trailed off.
'Well come on with it!' I urged him on.
'I don't think you and Beth are, how do I say this, uh right for each other. Yeah, she's a nice lady but do you find it a little odd how she came back into your life once you became famous?' Harry asked.
'Yeah I guess, but my feelings for her are still there I guess' I answer shrugging.
'But your feelings for Taylor are far more stronger are they not?' Harry asked, yet again.
'Definitely' I answered honestly.
'Exactly. But come on mate, we've got rehearsal' he said, walking from the kitchen to the door. Maybe he had a point, maybe Beth only came back into my life because I became famous and am in One Direction and Taylor had no idea who I was when we first met. She didn't freak out and ask me for a bunch of things when I told her about One Direction. She treats me like I'm a normal lad, and I love that about her. Maybe Harry was trying to say that I had to confront Beth or break up with her and fight for Taylor. And maybe, that was exactly what I was going to do.
A/N; I am SO sorry it has been this long! School literally is stressing me out and I didn't have the time. But I'm done exams tuesday and then I'll be able to update faster! Also, thank you ALL for your kind words in the comments and the messages some of you send, they're all very lovely. I cannont believe I have almost 200 reads. I just want to thank each and every single person who has even looked at this story, because it does mean a lot to me when people enjoy my writing. So thank you once again and I'll be sure to update you all soon :)