Please????? :(
ooh! ma life! ugh!
So jr year is mostly fun....but the hatin's gotta stop! i feel like im going insane! my used-to-be best friend keeps jerking me around all over the place..it makes my heart hurt...my esteem gets crushed...she confuses me..now she wants to be besties again and closer than ever...but im sick of all the drama and crap....i dont wanna be mean but im tired of feeling like life is a roller coster
anyway...ive been feeling pretty bad about myself and alot of other things latley and i guess sometimes im acting crazy...but i just want everyone else to be happy..because i love my friends so much..dont want anyone to worry about my problems and my life because im not important and it doesnt matter.. makes my heart hurt...
but anyway because of this..one of the college girls who works with our youthgroup has chosen to take me on and be my mentor or whatever...idk what to do...shes too nice...i dont deserve friends...dont deserve to be loved...im unwanted and unimportant anyway...im like a ghost... no one notices me as i wander through the dark...she makes me cry because im happy but idk...
i know no one ever reads anything i post cuz its just not important so.... screw it! i give up! i hate my life!
anyway...ive been feeling pretty bad about myself and alot of other things latley and i guess sometimes im acting crazy...but i just want everyone else to be happy..because i love my friends so much..dont want anyone to worry about my problems and my life because im not important and it doesnt matter.. makes my heart hurt...
but anyway because of this..one of the college girls who works with our youthgroup has chosen to take me on and be my mentor or whatever...idk what to do...shes too nice...i dont deserve friends...dont deserve to be loved...im unwanted and unimportant anyway...im like a ghost... no one notices me as i wander through the dark...she makes me cry because im happy but idk...
i know no one ever reads anything i post cuz its just not important so.... screw it! i give up! i hate my life!
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Aww! :( If you ever need to talk, message me :) I'm here for you!
That's not true.....
I read it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D You're nice! :)
I read! If u ever just need someone to talk to im willing to listen
Alot of ppl don't want to comment which is annoying because it takes ten seconds to do it. It frustrates me sometimes but lighten up about it. Don't worry bout it.
Nobody cares?!?!? I care? I count right? Please say I count! :''''( I totally and completely care!!! I think life is an emotional roller coaster too! And who says you don't deserve to have friends? Really, did anybody tell you that?
yes you count! of course dear!
i know and you have to remember this was a while ago..this crap is still going on but its not at the forefront of my mind
yes..i have had people tell me im no more than a peice of Shiit and that i dont deserve friends